Good news

I am confused by the good news. It is such bright, good news, overlaid with shards of loss which cast their light, prismed through fractured pieces, across its tear-stained joy:
the loss of innocence
the loss of a mother who never lived to see the day
the loss of little lives
the loss of years, and months, and weeks, and days, and minutes, and countless moments of freedom
the loss of a neighbourhood which will never again let its children out to play in the summer street where shadows gather
the loss of unformed memories
the loss of those unfound.
And yet the colours shine with astonished life, unlooked for redemption. It is, indeed, confusingly good news.

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Year C Easter 6: Light

Light is really special.

During the last couple of centuries, scientists began to discover some really quite counter-intuitive things about light, the way that light moves, acts, has its being. We  think of light as beams, rays, waves. But light is not only found in waves. Max Planck and Albert Einstein discovered that they couldn’t predict the behaviour of light waves as they should be able to; they had to divide light up into parcels, bits, photons. Light is not only wave, but particle too. It depends how you observe it as to which property it will exhibit; it depends how you look at it as to what you will see. Actually, I am told that this is applicable to all particle physics; but it began, as I understand it, with our learning about light.

Then, too, we have all played with prisms and seen how the different wavelengths within the spectrum of visible light translate into all the colours of the rainbow. But back in the nineteenth century, it was discovered that not all light is easily visible to the human eye. Infra-red and ultra-violet light may lie beyond the spectrum that we usually see; and yet we have heard them called light. The idea of light that we can’t see is quite something, when you think about it.

Light is really quite special.

Without light, we cannot grow, we cannot grow food, we cannot survive. Without light, we cannot survive. When a total eclipse of the sun occurs, reports say that even the birds fall silent. There is an eerie drawing in of breath as the world waits to find out if its light support system will indeed return.

In the beginning, at the start of Creation, the first creature that God spoke into being was Light. This was a couple of days (in the poetic world of Genesis) before the sun and the moon were hung in the sky to divide the daylight from the lesser light of the night sky. It’s not science, but the theological message of this evolution and delegation of light is that all light comes directly from God, and it is God who created the messengers of light that we now see, the sun, the moon, the stars, even our electric lights. Light, like us, was made in the image of God, whose face shines upon the heaven and the earth.

On the first page of our Bibles, light is created, and at the last, in the final chapters of the final book of our biblical canon, God lights us up without the need for the mediation of the moon or the sun; the Lamb is the lamp, and the face of God shines on all of the newly created heaven and earth.

Like any creature, our light can fail, and light can be abused. We hear of the problems of light pollution, the disturbances to our equilibrium that it brings. And there are old stories from the coast of Cornwall, that thin finger of land which points from the southwest of England out towards the Atlantic, whose tip is named Land’s End, about the wreckers. The wreckers were people who lay in wait for ships returning from the Americas filled with the wealth of the new world. Weary from their long ocean crossing, their spirits were lifted by the first sight of light from the mainland, the lighthouses of southwestern England.

The wreckers would take those lights and swing them on the beaches, near the shoals and the reefs, and lure the ships onto the rocks and live by their plunder; landlocked pirates, you might say. The wrong light in the wrong place was deadly.

It was one of the cruelest of crimes; not only because of the weariness of the sailors and their long months and even years away from home, but to use the very light that was meant to protect them, to bring them safely home, which raised their spirits and roused their hope – to foul that faith was diabolical.

John, the one who wrote the Revelation, lived in dark, dangerous and even diabolical times. The Roman emperor Nero had demonstrated the depths to which the worldly powers and principalities would stoop, and there did not seem to be an end to their evil. The light that Isaiah looked for to illuminate the holy city and draw the nations to God seemed to be failing. The temple was gone. These were dark days.

So John looked instead to a new creation, a new beginning, beyond anything he and the churches were now experiencing, when they would know and see and experience with fullness and certainty and safety and joy God with them, the glory of God shining upon them.

But here’s the strange thing. Back in the nineteenth century, scientists discovered that there is light that we cannot always see, which is naturally occurring in creation, which surrounds us, whether we know it or not. John’s vision is one of completion, of contrast, of a new creation. But we know that God is with us in this creation, in this life, in these times, whether or not we see the light. The consummation of John’s vision may be yet to come; but its light already shines in the darkness, and the darkness has never overcome it.

Amen.

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The water cycle

For my thoughts are not your thoughts, nor your ways my ways, says The Lord.
For as the heavens are higher than the earths so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.
For as rain and snow fall from the heavens and return not again, but water the earth,
Bringing forth life and giving growth, seed for sowing and bread for eating,
So is my word that goes forth from my mouth; it will not return to me empty;
But it will accomplish that which I have purposed, and prosper in that for which I sent it.
(Book of Common Prayer, p. 87)

One morning before ordination, before church, before everyone else arrived, and we were talking about the future and the fears and the falling rolls and the failure of nerve and the fact that I was probably not going to be the person called to reverse the rot;
the conversation was full of what I could not do.
So I went into the empty chapel and knelt before the empty altar and prayed in a certain tone of depression and desperation,
“So what do you expect me to do? Go down with the ship?”
And God answered with unusual, unexpected and irregular clarity,
“It’s not your ship.”

Between the Second Song of Isaiah and the reflection upon it at Morning Prayer today, I was reminded of this little incident in the middle of a little Sunday morning, and how the word of God will accomplish God’s purposes, how God’s word will prosper, whatever our own depression, desperation and defeatist prayers.

Back then, I got up, got dressed for the liturgy, and prayed fully and fervently, “Your will be done.” And just like that, hope returned.

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Breathing room

I have expanded since she left,
as though she wedged me tight,
her elbow in my side,
that space whence God had made
my other self; restored
my second lung inflates;
her voice still susurrates
as I exhale.

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The Mime

Living in a portable Perspex box,
beauty teases on the breeze,
my hand smacks hard against its borders,
my lips bruised from reaching for tenderness.

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From a great height

The green wooded hills
appear moss-laden, springy,
inviting embrace

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Year C Easter 5: What God has made

Last Monday, in case you missed it, was Earth Day; so it’s great and wonderful that our garden project is getting underway, taking advantage of the bounty of creation that God gave into our hands. According to the stories of Genesis, Adam was a gardener, appointed to that task by his Maker, to tend and nurture the good green earth.

I heard a sermon a few years ago, a sermon for Earth Day, and although I could never do justice to the preacher’s words, I remember especially his emotion when he challenged us never, never ever, to despise as unnatural something, someone, somebody made by God. I suspect that we may have been reading the story from Acts that day, the story in which Peter reminds his friends, his church, about affirming the goodness of all of God’s creation, about accepting and seeking the image of God in all of humanity, about refraining from despising as unnatural anything, anyone, anybody in the natural world that God has made.

Just to recap, Peter is back in Jerusalem after hanging out in Joppa at the house of Simon the tanner, where we left him last week. Whilst at Simon’s house, Peter had the vision that he described; and while Peter was having his vision, a man called Cornelius, a centurion in the Italian Cohort, was receiving his own message from God, telling him to send for Peter because Peter had news for him that would be to his advantage. While Peter was telling Cornelius about the life, death and resurrection of Jesus, the Holy Spirit fell upon all who heard it, and Peter was persuaded to seal the action by baptizing them. Now, Peter has to explain himself to those who felt that it might have been unseemly to visit with, preach among, much less to baptize, those of the Gentile persuasion. Perhaps they had all forgotten Jesus’ reputation for talking to just about anyone, and for seeking out especially those who were otherwise lost.

The challenge that Peter faced in his vision may be one which we struggle to find sympathy with; we may think that it is well outside of our experience. To understand what it means for a Jew to break kosher, to eat something understood through centuries as ritually unclean, unsavoury, that we were taught by our great-grandparents to leave well alone, because to eat it would be an offence against God – we don’t generally have that experience, and the depth of Peter’s anguish at his vision may be difficult to understand; although if any of you has been a vegan for twenty years, and you can imagine suddenly being offered a cheese-steak by an angel of the Lord, an offer you could hardly refuse, then you might come close.[1]

Because while I could be wrong, it is my understanding that in some ways, it was also a bereavement, to be told to eat the unclean animals; the Jewish people received the Law, their ritual rules as a gift from God, a sign of the covenant between the Almighty and the Chosen People, chosen to pray on behalf of the world, to live on behalf of the world a life dedicated to God. The Law was a sign and a symbol of this life lived with God, this mutual relationship of the Jews with their Maker, with the Maker of us all, and to give it up, to turn his back on it, to let go of the Law was not freedom to Peter, but a heavy burden, the burden of stepping beyond the bounds of his carefully wrought religion, practiced on behalf of the world, into the great unknown, the world itself.

But Peter’s vision was not the end of kosher observance for the Jewish Christians. Peter’s vision was not a preparation for a life of lobster bisque, but for the knock that would shortly come to Simon the tanner’s front door, from a Gentile looking for the Gospel, for guidance from a disciple of the living Christ; and, what is more, Peter’s commandment was not to become like Cornelius in order that Cornelius could become like Peter. Peter would always be a Jewish Christian, and the evidence from the rest of the Book of Acts and from the letters of Paul is that the Jewish Christians continued to keep kosher, to eat as adherents of the Jewish faith. Cornelius didn’t have to be circumcised:

Peter’s point to his fellows back in Jerusalem was precisely that Cornelius could become a Christian without becoming a Jew: each man’s faith was equally acceptable to God, mediated as it was through the life, death and resurrection of Jesus Christ and the gift of the Holy Spirit. The one name that they held in common was far stronger than any of the differences, the names, labels and actions that set them apart from one another: “Then God has given even to the Gentiles the repentance that leads to life.”

The pressing point of the story, I think, is not that all differences between the individuals and groups that made up the new Christians churches must be subsumed or papered over or blended or liquidated in order for them to worship together; but that even in their difference, their unique backgrounds and cultures, their God-given histories, they were all equally important to God, beloved of God, welcome in the kingdom of God.

It may feel like a subtle semantic point to make, but for the people living through the decisions about whether or not and who had to be circumcised, or even who could eat shrimp cocktail, it was clearly a huge deal. Each person was permitted to bring to the table (pun intended) their own, true, God-given selves, without apology or apostasy. Peter’s temporary suspension of his own obligations to discretion, to dietary discipline, was a parable, a prophetic action to make this very point; that while it was his joy to keep kosher, it must not be a barrier to bearing witness to the Holy Spirit’s baptism of Cornelius and his household.

The language that is used for the unclean animals, which Peter applies to the persons of Cornelius and his household when he visits them, is rendered in English common, or profane; secular, or mundane. On the contrary, says the vision, says God, all that God has made is sacred, is holy. All that God has made is sacred, is holy.

There was a great letter in the Plain Dealer this past week, wherein the letter-writer posited that the problem with the young men who planted the Boston bombs was not that they were not like the rest of America, but that they considered the difference to be a bad thing, diversity to be something evil. He wrote,

“ It’s those who hate the differences between us, such as the Tsarnaev brothers, who personify the problem.” – Hank Drake South Euclid[2]

We like to think that we are so sophisticated, tolerant, accepting and laid back these days, and yet while we might throw up our hands in horror at the idea of being thought racist, or homophobic, or Islamophobic, or xenophobic – wasn’t there just the tiniest ripple of relief that ran through the news cycle when it was determined that the two young men suspected of bombing Boston were, well, not from around these parts? That they were able to be described, somehow or another, as “other”? We still like to define in and out, clean and unclean, friend and foe. Of course we do. It’s only natural. But a friend defines herself by her friendly actions, and a foe by different acts. It is not their God-given selves that are faulty, but the way that they have used or abused them.

We must not be led astray by our recognition of our differences. We must never be tempted to declare that one who is different from us is made in the image of a lesser God than ours. 

Ours should not be the prayer of the Pharisee who thanked God that he was not like other men, and took pride in his separation from his fellows.

 

Watching Dr Who yesterday afternoon (it was a rerun, but still great), I was reminded that some of the most terrifying monsters in science fiction are those who would remove our differences, our individuality, our personal responses to one another and to God. This is what the Cybermen said in that Dr Who episode,

‘Cybermen now occupy every land mass on this planet. But you need not fear. Cybermen will remove fear. Cybermen will remove sex and class and colour and creed. You will become identical, you will become like us.”[3]

Chilling.

And if you are not a fan of the Doctor, how about the Borg from Star Trek:

“We are the Borg. You will be assimilated. Resistance is futile.”[4]

We value our own differences, our own versions of the kosher requirements, what sets us apart, what makes us unique, and that is good, because God has made each of us and we are fearfully and wonderfully made. It is good to value our differences, just so long as we can give equal value to the differences of one another.

Paul wrote to the Galatians that in Christ, “There is neither Jew nor Greek, there neither slave nor free, their neither male nor female,” but it would be difficult to argue that he meant it literally; I think that he still understood himself, for example to be demonstrably male. What he meant, I think, is what Peter learned: that our differences do not need to come between us, but that we are equal in value and stature before God; that we need never be separated or divided, much less differentially valued by our difference.

In the end, it comes back to Genesis. After making each thing, each category of thing, “each after its own kind”, not the same as the next or the one that came before; after making humanity in its own simple diversity, “male and female God made them”, then God saw everything that had been made, and it was very good.

Let nothing and no one that God has made be called common, or profane. What God has made has been made holy by the holiness of the Creator, and all of it belongs in all of its diversity, all of its promise, all of its difference, to God. Even every one of us.


[1] See Amy-Jill Levine, The Misunderstood Jew: The Church and the Scandal of the Jewish Jesus (New York: HarperOne, 2006), especially pp.25-26, 126-7

[3] BBC Doctor Who, Series 2, Episode 13, “Doomsday”, first broadcast 8 July 2006

[4] I don’t know, I’m not a Trekkie; it’s a thing, though, right? Anyway, try http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Borg_(Star_Trek) for more info about the Borg.

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Hope

There is a Collect that I pray each morning as I wake up. Actually, I have to start it over a couple of times, because it really is my awakening prayer, and often I wake up more than once and discover I’d fallen asleep again mid-sentence. I usually get there in the end.

It is the Collect for Grace offered in the Morning Prayer services of the Episcopal Church. The traditional version (p.57) goes like this:

O Lord, our Heavenly Father, almighty and everlasting God, who hast safely brought us to the beginning of this day: Defend us in the same with thy mighty power; and grant that this day we fall into no sin, neither run into any kind of danger; but that we, being ordered by thy governance, may do always what is righteous in thy sight; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

The contemporary version is subtly different:

Lord God, almighty and everlasting Father, you have brought us in safety to this new day: Preserve us with your mighty power, that we may not fall into sin, nor be overcome by adversity; and in all we do, direct us to the fulfilling of your purpose; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

In my sleepy state, I tend to go for a combination of the two. This has to be one of the prayers I grew up with in the Church in Wales (we read Morning Prayer every other Sunday), because it is so familiar that I can pray it in my sleep; but it is the contemporary opening which springs to my quiet lips: you have brought us in safety to this new day.

Lately, I’ve had trouble praying those words. For the first time in a lifetime of praying this Collect, they have struck me as rather selfish. Yes, I am safe, but we? Us? Depends on who is included, and what safety signifies, doesn’t it?

It started with three people who died unexpectedly: John, Ethan, Robert; leaving questions in their wake, bewilderment as well as the usual grief. Then the Boston marathon, and the earthquakes, and West, Texas, and the usual rounds of fear and falling and pain and tears, until I felt quite selfish, waking up warm in my own bed, and the words of safety sounded smug in my own head.

Last week, while I was preparing a memorial homily, I was reminded of a book, Butterflies Under Our Hats, by Sandy Eisenberg Sasso. It was recommended by a friend, the Revd Joy Caires for talking to children about death and dying (see her blogpost here). It is about a town that is out of luck, but which discovers hope.

Hope. That resonated deeply with me. I went to bed rolling it around in my soul, tasting it and trying it out. When I awoke the next morning, tentatively, I tested the waters,

You have brought us with hope to this new day

And it seemed to fit the bill quite nicely.

Yes, I know better than to mess with the traditional prayers that have been handed down through the generations, and I ask the forgiveness of my spiritual ancestors. But I do not think that they would deny me hope, and for the safety of my soul, for now, it will be my first thanksgiving of the day.

 

Butterflies under our hats, by Sandy Eisenberg Sasso, illustrated by Joani Keller Rothenburg (Brewster,MA: Paraclete Press, 2006)

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The usual

I started the meeting excusing myself – “This has been an unusual day,” –
when, cut short by an out-loud laugh, I wondered how long, in fact, it had been
since we talked about anything normal, reasonable, regular;
accepting the laugh with a smile of my own, I yielded the floor to my other self.

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Year C Easter 4: Washed in the blood of the Lamb

For the past several years, on the Sunday of the Cleveland Marathon, Trinity Cathedral, our Episcopal cathedral downtown, has taken to the streets during its education hour between services to cheer on the runners. The youth group and Sunday school classes make signs to hold up: keep going, you’re nearly there, Jesus loves you. One year, maybe more than one, but I know of at least one year, the congregation was so caught up in the drama of the final mile of the marathon runners’ journey that they didn’t want to leave to go inside when it came time for the service, so instead they moved a table out onto Euclid Avenue and celebrated right there in the midst of the race.

I didn’t watch the news on Monday. The words of the online reports that I read conjured up images that I had no desire to see in colour in my living room. Of course, too many people were unable to avoid the sight, and much more.
On Tuesday, I received a phone message from my daughter letting me know, in case I saw it on the news and worried, that the bomb squad had been out to her school campus.
On Wednesday, parents of the children killed in Newtown led the way to the White House Rose Garden after the failure of the Senate to come together to promote greater gun safety.
On Thursday, we awoke to the news that the town of West, Texas, had exploded overnight, because of a factory fire, and many first responders were among the lost.
By Friday, the entire city of Boston was under a lockdown after a frightful night.
On Saturday, the very earth trembled in China and hundreds fell.

We are still looking for answers, for reasons, for the why of what happened in our nation, and around the world this week.

The image of green pastures and still waters has been cast somewhat under the shadow of death.

Still, the memory of that street Eucharist, the body and blood poured out in the midst of sweat and toil, exhaustion and elation at the approach of the finish line – that image abides with me, an oasis of worship and refreshment amid the toil and strife.

The elder said to me, “These are the ones who have come out of the great ordeal; they have washed their robes in the blood of the Lamb. For this reason they are before the throne of God, and worship him day and night within his temple, and the one who is seated on the throne will shelter them. The Lamb will be their shepherd, and he will guide them to springs of the water of life, and God will wipe away every tear from their eyes.”

The book of Revelation was written at a difficult and dangerous moment in the history of the church. Persecutions were common; the Roman empire did not enjoy the challenge to its authority that the new Christians posed, claiming as they did that God, not the emperor, was the eternal ruler of the world, not to mention that Jesus was living, even though Rome had killed him, that God could undo any evil that the Caesar wrought, that fear was no match for love.

Even among the populace of many of the places that Rome ruled, emperor worship was really no problem. In places of polytheistic worship, where many gods were recognized, adding a shrine to the emperor was not seen as unusual, or out of order. The Christians were out of line not only with the authorities, but with many of their peers.[1] Of course, the Jews had suffered the same problem, and their temple had been destroyed in AD70, a catastrophic blow to that community; now, the new Christians fell under the same suspicion and similar threats of persecution and destruction.

It was an ordeal, to be a faithful follower of Jesus in the late first century and beyond. But fear was no match for love.

The visionary John who wrote the Revelation saw clearly that those who participated in the death of Christ were raised with him also to new life, worshiping joyfully and freely before the throne of God, protected from all harm and suffering as they sang songs and hymns of praise to the Lamb.

But theirs was not only life after death. The communities that were faithful were also protected in life from despair, from falling out of faith. They were preserved by their love for God and for one another from descending into evil, from turning away from what was good; they loved fiercely, they prayed fervently, they lived fully, as ones who knew the promises of God, that goodness and mercy would follow them, and that they would live in the house of the Lord forever.

I am reminded of the people who ran into the chaos last Monday, instead of running away, who ran to those wounded and helped them. I am reminded of the runners who kept going past the finish line and ran to the hospitals to give blood – can you imagine donating blood after running 26.2 miles? As depleted as they were, they knew that they had everything left to give, they had life left to give.

I am reminded of the first responders who were knowingly in harm’s way in West, Texas, but who stood by their hoses to protect others, and the law enforcement personnel who searched street to street around Boston, looking to stop a young man before he could harm anyone else, again, knowing the risk to their own lives.

I don’t know whether or not they were Christians, but I do know that those people bore witness to a faith that love is stronger than fear, that life outlasts death, that their own lives did not begin and end with themselves but were extended through the lives of their neighbours and their communities.

I think of those whose first thought Friday was to pray for our enemies, for those who would harm us, because that is what Jesus commanded us to do.

Fear is no match for love, nor cowardice for courage, nor darkness for light. If you think about it, a little darkness entering a room can only dim the light; but the tiniest spark of light breaks open the darkness and shatters it.

It is a good thing that we have these particular readings today, the readings we so often hear at a funeral, because they are a reminder that even in the midst of life, we know death, and that even in the shadow of death, we know life; real and eternal life, as Jesus says. Life that is lived fully, with hope and in the knowledge that we live in the temple of God, God’s own creation, ever before the throne; life that is not ended by death, that is not overcome by evil.

With our spiritual ancestors, who celebrated in the shadow of Rome, and with people of faith around the world today, in downtown Cleveland, in Boston and beyond, we defy the forces of darkness, we who are washed in the blood of the Lamb, because we know the promises of our God, the Good Shepherd who knows us each by name, who leads us beside still waters, who comforts us in the valley of the shadow of death, who shelters us from harm and wipes every tear from our eyes.

We celebrate in the midst of the races run around us, the lives of toil and effort, exhilaration and the exhaustion; our worship is an oasis of still waters while the turbulent waves beat around us; and with joy and defiance, we will continue to sing in the house of the Lord, forever.

 

[1] M. Eugene Boring, Revelation: Interpretation, A Bible Commentary for Teaching and Preaching (Louisville: Westminster John Knox Press, 2011), 21

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