Good Friday

This, too, is the day
that the Lord has made; shall we,
then, be glad in it?

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Maundy Thursday: the sacrament of love

Ambrose, Bishop of Milan in one of the early centuries of the church, believed that the washing of feet instituted by Jesus was as sacramental, as important and as necessary as the two sacraments that the churches have all ended up accepting as those given us directly by Jesus’ word and action:

Baptism, accepted by Jesus and commanded at the end of Matthew’s Gospel: Go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit; Eucharist, rehearsed by Jesus at the Last Supper, as we celebrate tonight, and commanded to continue in his memory.

But look, Ambrose might say, at what the Gospel says:
Jesus, knowing that the Father had given all things into his hands, and that he had come from God and was going to God, rose from supper, laid aside his garments, and girded himself with a towel. Then he poured water into a basin, and began to wash the disciples’ feet, and to wipe them with the towel with which he was girded. When Peter demurred, Jesus pressed him, saying, “If I do not wash you, you have no part in me.” Simon Peter said to him, “Lord, not only my feet but also my hands and head!” When he was done, and had resumed his place, Jesus said to them, “If I have washed your feet, you also ought to wash one another’s feet. For I have given you an example, that you also should do as I have done to you.”[1]

It amuses some liturgical wits to wonder then whether we might not as easily have found ourselves celebrating the washing of one another’s feet as the central sacrament of our Sunday worship, with the Eucharist reserved for the annual commemoration of the Last Supper on Maundy Thursday.

But we read the washing of feet as Jesus’ signpost to his disciples of what was to come, his foreshadowing of his offering of himself, body and spirit, on the cross for our salvation, for the forgiveness of sins and for the reconciliation of the world to its God, his demonstration of love poured out unconditionally, freely and wholly, for all people.

Just as Mary had anointed the feet of Jesus, and wiped them with her hair, pouring out her love and her grief and her hope, her sorrow at his leaving, her hope for his return, so Jesus bids farewell to his disciples in a tender gesture, offering them his humble thanks for their friendship, his promise that he would do anything for them, his example of deep and active love.

It is so difficult to let someone love us. It is so difficult to receive a gift with no means of return, to receive a blessing, forgiveness for something we can barely forgive ourselves, the admiration of one whom we admire, or despise. We want to stay in control, to do for ourselves, to owe no one anything.

But we cannot control God. There is nothing that we can offer to God which has not been provided to us by God’s grace. Our own selves, our souls and bodies are creations which we give back only to the one who gifted them to us.

As Jesus washed the feet of his disciples, as tender as a mother, as humble as a slave, as intimate as a woman, as Mary of Bethany had been with him, he demonstrated the all-encompassing, abounding love of God for each of them, for all of them.

As he shared with them a meal baring his body and soul, his blood which would be poured out for them, his love with which he laid down his life for them, for us, he showed them the lengths that God will go to simply to be with us.

A sacrament, as you know, is an outward and visible sign of God’s inward and invisible grace. What Jesus offered his disciples was unmistakable. Then he said, “You also should do for one another what I have done for you,” that is, be outward and visible signs of God’s grace, witness to God’s evident love for all of God’s creation, and be ready to receive that love ourselves, without condition or control, without holding back, but like Peter diving headlong into the gift of God’s mercy.

“Love one another,” said Jesus, “as I have loved you.”

Amen.

[1] St Ambrose, Bishop of Milan d.397, De Sacramentis (On the Sacraments), Book 3, iv-vi; source: Documents of the Baptismal Liturgy, E.C. Whitaker, rev. and exp. By Maxwell E. Johnson (Collegeville, Minnesota: Liturgical Press, third edn 2003), p. 180

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Tenebrae

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On Wednesday, in the evening as darkness begins to fall, we will anticipate the passion to come, the darkness that will fall over the whole land on the afternoon of Good Friday, the agony and the grief, and finally, the … Continue reading →

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Year C: Palms and Passion

I am going to guess that you already know the story of the Emperor’s New Clothes, and then I’m going to tell it to you, anyway.

Once there was an emperor, who wanted a splendid new costume for his grand procession. His tailors were terrified, because he was an exacting and rather mean man. In fact, their terror gave them tremors, so that they couldn’t hold their needles because their hands shook too much, and their panic paralysed them, so that they were unable even to choose a design of cloth for the emperor’s new clothes.

The emperor returned for his fitting, and in a flash of brilliance born of despair, one of the tailors wove a tale of fabric so fine that it could only be seen by the most discerning eye. Of course, the emperor immediately imagined that he could see splendid clothes and rich robes. The tailors were commended, and the emperor went out happy, ready for the great parade.
But what would happen when the people saw that there was nothing to this fabled fabric? The tailors told their friends, and begged them to go along with the ruse, and quickly the rumour spread that the emperor’s new clothes were so fine that they could only be seen by the most discerning eye, and the people convinced themselves and their neighbours that they were impressed.

Then, a small child – and if you don’t know this about small children, they are not easily impressed, or fooled; they are too busy learning what’s what in the world, and exercising true discernment – this small child said,

“Well this is silly! The emperor isn’t wearing any clothes!”

And the people finally saw through the ruse and saw a lot more of the emperor than they had bargained for.

It took one voice, telling the truth with piercing clarity, to burst the bubble of illusion.

In Matthew and Mark’s accounts of Jesus’ final entry into Jerusalem, riding on a donkey and hailed by children and the hopeful people, we find none of the grumbling that Luke reports by the Pharisees. In John, the Pharisees see the parade and are resigned, “You see that you can do nothing; look, the world has gone after him.” In Luke, they order the people to cease and desist from their praise. They are afraid, with reason, that such an outpouring of joy and hope and messianic expectation will rattle the Romans and bring down trouble on the nation of Israel. Jesus laughs them off, and quotes psalms about stones singing praises. But it may be that Luke reports a detail that is important to the story; that the crowd was not all in agreement, that there was dissent, and that the dissent was given a voice.

The Pharisees may have been wrong, but unfortunately, their lone little voices seem to have been heard, because by the end of the week, the crowd is jeering Jesus, and calling for his crucifixion; one man given up for the safety of the many.

Our voices can be used for good or for ill, but they do make a difference.

It’s been a rough news week for Ohio. Last Tuesday, the young man who shot classmates at Chardon High School was sentenced, and his words and actions once more shocked and rocked those around him. Last Sunday, two teenagers were found guilty and sentenced for their part in a horrible attack on an unfortunate girl. We have been left wondering what has happened to our culture, and why we seem unable to stop the cycle of violence and abuse, of denigration and the denial of one another’s humanity. We wonder why, in that basement in Steubenville, no one said, “Stop.”

We have voices, and one voice in the crowd can be powerful. We cannot rely on the stones to shout out for us. We, the disciples of Jesus, need to raise our voices in support of justice and mercy, God’s love for each of God’s children.

This week, representatives of Greater Cleveland Congregations, including some of our Episcopal neighbours, met with Governor Kasich and testified at the State Capitol in support of Medicaid expansion. They spoke up for those in need of mental health care, in need of basic health interventions and medicine. Next week, Christians led by the Episcopal bishops of Conneticut will walk the way of the cross in Washington, praying for an end to gun violence, and urging urgent action to bring that end closer.

When his disciples attacked with the sword, Jesus said, Stop, and he healed the one who had been hurt.

But Peter failed to speak up when he had the chance to affirm Jesus, and he ended up weeping bitterly. Joseph of Arimathea – how much of his extravagant expense in opening up a new tomb for Jesus was spent out of guilt because he knew what the council was doing was wrong, but he did not speak out, speak up, tell them blunt and outright, plain and simple, “Stop.”

The power of the crowd is great. We like to think alike; we like to get along. We like to go with the flow, to be accepted, to belong. But we cannot rely on the stones to shout out for us.

Yesterday’s Lenten reflection from the collection that I’ve been posting day by day on our facebook page came from our colleague in ministry, the Rev Jan Smith-Wood of Grace Episcopal Church in Sandusky. She said,

The other day, I heard our bishop say that all Christians are leaders. A few days earlier a Pentecostal pastor of more than 50 years said that the world really needs the church to be the church, now more than ever.

What if our Lenten spirit-work were devoted to finding out what it takes to be courageous Christians? Brave leaders? Followers of Jesus in his fearless reaching out to the overlooked and wounded with healing love and life-changing words? What if we sought to be true imitators of Christ in his fierce advocacy for the poor and his courageous alignment with the disdained?

When we witness the world’s opposition to the gospel, that God loves and values each person that God has made, without exception,
when we witness racism and homophobia, sexism and the casual denigration of those who are different to the main group, the in crowd,
do we laugh at the off-colour joke to keep the peace and save our own embarrassment?
do we stay silent in the face of misinformation and discrimination, or do we set the record straight?
do we accept the world’s report, or do we point out the emperor’s nudity, the narcissism of Rome, Steubenville’s failure to protect the most vulnerable, our own capitulation to the unchecked availability of weapons of war for use in our homes?
do we close our ears to the ugly slur against our neighbour, or do we open our mouths and say, “Stop”?
Are we waiting for the stones to do it for us?

At the end of the Passion gospel, the centurion speaks, “Surely this man was innocent.” And he praised God. A little late, but still, who knows what he started. Earlier in Luke’s gospel, Jesus told this little parable: The kingdom of God is like a woman who took three measures of flour, and seasoned them with a small measure of yeast, and left it there until the whole heap of flour was leavened and risen.

A pinch of yeast. The word of a small child. The courage to speak, to say, Stop, in the name of God. It’s never too late to speak up, to speak out, no voice is too small to be heard. God can work wonders with small miracles.

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Things that I struggle with

Things that I struggle with, in no particular order:
Unscrewing the lid from a new jar of pickles.
Unravelling tangled yarn chewed by the cat.
Understanding the holy mystery of the empty tomb.
Untying the umbilical cords that bind us tight.
Unsaying unspeakable things that have been said.
Undoing the grief occasioned by the dead.

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Year C Lent 5: a royal priesthood

The story of Jesus’ anointing is told in all four gospels, although there are differences in the details that each reports. Only John names the woman who performed the prophetic act: Mary, the sister of Martha and Lazarus, of Bethany. Jesus seemed at home in their home; he loved them, and in the last weeks and days before he entered Jerusalem for the last time, theirs was a place of refuge for him, as well as a stepping stone to danger.

The last time Jesus came to Bethany, his disciples told him, “They are trying to stone you, and you would go back?”, and Thomas said, “Fine, we’ll go with you, and die with you there.”

The last time he came to Bethany was just after Lazarus, the brother of Mary and Martha, had died; Lazarus who is sitting at table with Jesus in this next episode, restored and in good appetite.

In between that visit and this, we are told that Caiaphas, the high priest, afraid of the vengeance of Rome, wanted Jesus put to death, one man’s death to save the many from the wrath of the Romans: “It is better for you to have one man die for the people than to have the whole nation destroyed,” and he hardly knew what he was saying, that it would be better for the people to let Jesus die for them. Then, just before his return, the Pharisees gave orders that anyone who knew where Jesus was should tell them, so that they might arrest him. Those who would do Jesus harm were powerful, and they were made angrier still by the people’s loud love of him.

But then, during that last, previous visit, amazing things had happened.

Martha had confessed what she knew,
“Yes, Lord, I believe that you are the Messiah, the Son of God, the one coming into the world,”
and she told him,
“If you had been here, my brother would not have died,”
and Mary echoed her sister’s words:
“If you had been here, he would not have died.”
And then Lazarus walked out of the tomb.

The Gospel of John is the most literary of the gospels, the one which most considers style to be substance, which seeks to convey meaning not only by what it says, but by how it says it. This story is full of shadows. Foreshadowing, as you know, is a dramatic technique whereby something important, a climactic event, is signposted and built up throughout the drama, so that when it arrives, it is as though we knew all along that this was just how it must be, what had to happen.

The washing of feet; the tenderness to the body; Lazarus, sitting at the table eating weeks after he was dead; the outburst by Judas; and the perfume, the nard used to embrace the dead one last time; there are so many shadows to this story. And there is more: the prophetic act of anointing consecrates a person to the service of God, and nominates a king; it is used at baptisms, at coronations, as well as at death’s door.

Over the past couple of weeks, a few people have asked about the oils that we use in the church. Every month, on the first Sunday, we use oil blessed for healing, to anoint those seeking prayer and protection, healing and hope for themselves and those they love. We use it as a sign of that healing: doctors often used olive oil as a balm, as a medicine, in Jesus’ day.

And in baptism, after we die and rise with Christ, after we are washed and wiped, as we are sealed with the sign of the cross we use oil, we are anointed, to mark us as Christ’s own forever. Hear the words that are used by a bishop to consecrate the oil of Chrism:

Eternal Father, whose blessed Son was anointed by the Holy Spirit to be the Savior and servant of all, we pray you to consecrate this oil, that those who are sealed with it may share in the royal priesthood of Jesus Christ; who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, for ever and ever. Amen (BCP 307)

We are anointed to a royal priesthood, sharing in the life and work of Jesus Christ. We are sealed in his tomb and released to his resurrection. We are anointed, in a prophetic act, we are given a new life, a new direction.

Six days before the Passover, Jesus came to Bethany, the home of Lazarus, whom he had raised from the dead. There they gave a dinner for him. Martha served, and Lazarus was one of those at the table with him. Mary took a pound of costly perfume, anointed Jesus’ feet, and wiped them with her hair.
 
Mary knew that there was trouble ahead. As much as she loved Jesus, she could not keep him safe and she would not ask him not to go to his death in Jerusalem. And now, the authorities threatened even Lazarus, since it was because he lived that many were coming to believe in Jesus, because he did not stay dead.

And in the face of these trials and troubles and danger, they, Jesus’ friends, gave a dinner party, and Martha served, and Mary sat once more at Jesus’ feet, and she bathed him in oil, naming him king, priest, victim.

And Judas had a point, in a way, to question the extravagance of the gift and whether the money could be better spent, but Jesus reminded him, reminded them all, that he did not come only to serve but also to love, to spend time with people, to build relationships, to reciprocate friendship.

When the joy of life is denied, we line up with the priests who would put Lazarus to death simply for being alive out of order, instead of celebrating the restoration of brother to sister, friend to friend.

So, once again, as Martha served, doing what was necessary to make a fine party, Mary sealed the deal from her seat at Jesus’ feet, and he loved them both, and their brother too, and the fragrance of it filled the house. There is no doubt that Mary loved Jesus, there is no other way to understand her actions except through the lens of deep and abiding love, but how much did she know, how much did she realize? Even as she anointed his body with perfume once intended for his burial, Mary must have remembered how he had already overcome death once on her family’s behalf, when he raised up her brother. Even though Jesus said they would not always have him near them, Mary hoped against hope that it wasn’t true.

Did she anticipate his acclaimed entry into Jerusalem, with the palms waving and the people cheering? Did she anoint him king because she expected him to pull off some sort of miraculous, improbable kingly coup?
She knew that it was dangerous. They were bound to arrest him. Then did she expect Jesus to die and remain in the tomb, perfumed and preserved?
Does she expect something else? Is she keeping him sweet smelling so that Martha, who warned him against entering Lazarus’ lair, does not have to worry about the stench from Jesus’ opened tomb? Jesus had already confounded the idea of death as the final act, the last word. Does Mary anticipate the resurrection?

Our anointing at baptism was not to perfume our bodies for the grave. It was to raise us up into new life and to ordain us to a royal priesthood. As we approach Holy Week, with its pomp and pall, betrayal and love, and passion and perfection hung out to dry, even as we approach the cross, we are seeking resurrection. Though we stumble, we are called to continue in hope.

We are a royal priesthood, anointed to share in the ministry of Jesus, to share in the fullness of his life, a life fully lived, with love and mercy, service, humility, friendship, grief, and joy, a life lived not alone, but in the company of friends and family who bring us to life.

Like Mary and Martha, Lazarus and Jesus, like Judas, in the midst of life we know death, and like Mary, in every death, and in every death to self, to fear, to sin, we know that there is the hope of resurrection.

Already, its fragrance fills the house.

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Nothing, nor anything else

A grace-filled daily reflection from a colleague got me thinking. He was writing about those wonderful words of Paul, which are included in the little rationale for joy and grief coexisting at funerals which is included in our Book of Common Prayer (p. 507):

“neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

My friend pondered those times when we are separated even from ourselves. I can only believe and hope that God knows each of our selves, often better than we do. God knows the little self left behind at an adoption; the self that would have been, the ones that become and ones that we try to deny. God gets the whole, integrated picture, even when we are disintegrated and more than a little fuzzy around the edges.

I commend my friend’s blog to you: http://thefunstons.com/?p=4808; do give it a read. In the meantime, this is why his words struck such a chord with me.

***

We grew up together. Our memories were forged on the anvil of the other, but the last time I met him, I didn’t recognize their shape or substance. It wasn’t that he remembered things differently, but that he carried different memories. It was as though a traveller from a parallel universe had stumbled into our world; he was a changeling.

It is hopeless and unfair to expect one who has not experienced harm to repent of it or to forgive it. And how can one who remembers no rift be reconciled? Nothing is any longer shared, nor can anything come between us.

A friend, wiser and more practiced in compassion than I, suggested that, in the absence of real memories, he had been free to create them in his own self-image. This, then, was the person he would choose to be: loving and faithful, happy, reliable, true and beloved. He didn’t choose power and influence; he did not choose wealth and worldly success; he was not cruel but kind; not selfish but generous. He did not even eschew grief; but he bore it honourably.

He chose the laughter of a child, and the touch of a lover, when he was freed from the fetters of reality to remember whatever he liked.

And who would be unkind enough to argue that this was not the person whom God had intended him to be all along?

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Some things make me sad

Some things make me sigh.

Recently, I admitted that I did not believe that I would ever fully understand the Resurrection, or the Incarnation, or God, or the Sacraments…

We are called to love God with all of our minds, as well as our hearts and souls and strength, and I try, and I will not stop studying, but there is so much that is simply beyond my understanding. “My thoughts are not your thoughts, says the Lord.”

And that’s ok, because God can speak to every soul in words, in ways that each beloved child will understand as loving.

What made me sad was the person who told me they had never heard that from a church before.

(I do love my church, God’s church. I think that it tries hard to love God and God’s people.)

Sometimes it’s good to get sad. God save me from ever thinking I know it all, or that it’s my job to have all the answers.

That would be a shame.

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Year C Lent 4: The hungry sons

I’ve been thinking this week about titles for this story, this famous parable of Jesus, so familiar and so well-thumbed that we defy ourselves to find anything new in it.

I do wonder if it needs a new title.

“The Prodigal Son.” Prodigal is not a word we use everyday, nor often at all. Chances are, ninety-nine percent of the utterances of that word that we have made refer to this very parable. So all it relates to is a character in a story, an example, a cartoon. It has no meaning left for us.

“Prodigal”, if you look it up in the “Shorter” Oxford English Dictionary, means as an adjective applied to a noun, like “son”

“Recklessly wasteful of one’s property or means, extravagant, lavish, proud, conceited”

We tell this story, time and again, as a tale of God’s love for the repentant sinner, as a tale of grace and forgiveness, of coming to one’s senses and the joy that follows, and yet we label it as sin, as profligacy, as shameful and wasteful and bad.

I have a hunch that the elder brother would approve, the elder brother who stayed in his father’s house, at his mother’s side, while his sibling packed his bags and wandered away, thumbing his nose at his family.

The elder brother is so angry at his sibling for getting away with it. That’s how he sees it – he got away with it! He comes home and all is forgiven and all is restored, he is loved and he is cherished – he got away with it!

This brother is blind to the self-harm that his sibling has suffered – the self-imposed exile, the shame, the degradation, the damage to his own self-worth that prompted him to exclude himself from his father’s love: “I am no longer worthy to call myself your son; treat me instead as your servant, your slave.” The elder brother has no idea of the depths of his younger sibling’s hunger, the hunger that was stronger even than his shame, the hunger that drove him home.

But more than that, he is blind to the present and to the future; he is stuck in the past, judging over and over again his brother’s past actions, instead of meeting him in the road, as their father does, and embracing the new reality of a restored family who will work out a new future together, one in which, by the way, one brother has no inheritance left and will have to start over building his retirement portfolio. All is forgiven, but some consequences remain.

The elder brother is stuck in the past, like the impatient owner of the fig tree – “No fruit the past three years – cut it down!”, or Jonah outside the city of Nineveh, “What if they repented? Smite them anyway! They deserve it.” [If you’re wondering what Jonah has to do with it, last week’s sermon is available here: https://rosalindhughes.com/2013/03/03/year-c-lent-3-manure-and-mercy/]

His anger has been balled up so long it turns to bile and bitterness. His stomach is too sour to enjoy the fatted calf, his spirit too sullen to rejoice. Part of the elder brother’s anger, one suspects, is at himself, for never trying kicking up the traces, never risking the wrath of his father, never over reaching; he is as angry at his own self-imposed servitude as his brother was despairing at his own self-imposed exile. He does not understand how his father could forgive, could embrace, could love his brother, because he has never understood how much his father loves him. He has lived in fear of offending his father, when all of this, all of this grace, all of this love, all of this embrace was his all along for the asking.

If you look at the verse numbers of the gospel reading that we heard this morning, you will notice a gap. At the beginning of the chapter, the Pharisees and the scribes are grumbling, because Jesus dares to dine with dissolute types, the prodigal sons, the wastrels and the profligate losers, the ones hungry enough to sit down at table with him and eat. They are angry at Jesus’ extravagance, his lavish lifestyle; they think him proud and conceited.

Jesus responds with a set of stories. The first, which we didn’t read, is the story of the ninety-nine sheep, and the one which was lost, and the shepherd who sought it out in the wilderness and brought it home rejoicing. The second is about a silver coin which a woman lost, and even though she knew that it must be still in the house, that it had never left, that it was always there – still she turned the house upside down until she found it and restored it to its proper place, and she rejoiced when she did so.

Then the stories of the two brothers, the one who stayed, and the one who’ll come home when he’s hungry, both beloved of their father, both the apples of his eye and the joy of his heart, if only they knew it; one in the wilderness who so nearly never came home out of his shame; and one who was in the house all along, but hidden from sight by the shadow of his own self-righteous anger. We saw last week how such self-righteous judgement is a two-edged sword; “Why do you love him?” spills over too readily into, “Why don’t you love me more?”

In the story of the lost sheep, the shepherd left the others safely penned and went out looking for the lamb. In the story of the lost coin, the widow stayed home and searched diligently till she found it. In the story of the lost son, the father gave him all that he had to give, and waited, sorrowing but ever hopeful, for his return.

I grew up with a  brother who would, from time to time, express his displeasure at his parents by leaving home. He would pack up his little bag with his worldly possessions – a few choice comic books, a few pennies left from his weekly allowance, his Peter Rabbit stuffed animal toy, maybe a bag of chips for the road – and he would set off, announcing his intention to leave home and make his own way in the world. For us, “the world” was fairly well bounded by the shops on the hill, by the main road on one side of town and by the sea on the other side, and by the lane past school, where my brother spent most of his adventurous afternoons sitting in the tree we had claimed as a den, eating his chips and reading his comics. Our mother would say, “He’ll come home when he gets hungry,”

He’ll come home when he’s hungry.

In the story of the elder son, the grumbling son, the father went out to him, and pleaded with him, reminded him, “All that is mine is yours.” His father loved him, and when he finally gets hungry enough to give up his anger and come and join the feast, he will find himself as celebrated as any sheep.

Very soon, we will find ourselves invited to a feast that God has prepared for us, a table set with a white cloth and silver plates and fine chalices. We will be invited to take part in the most extravagant meal imaginable, to partake of God, to share in the mysteries of God’s sacramental presence with us.

And we will approach it like repentant sons, hungry and poor and penitent, “Most merciful God, we are not worthy so much as to gather up crumbs under the table” – we are not fit to be even your servants, cleaning up after the meal. But we remember that God is always waiting for our return, that God loves us, so we pray, “but your property, Lord, is always to have mercy. Therefore, grant us so to eat.”

We all know what it is to be lost, whether in the wilderness or in some dark corner of our own homes, our own lives, buried in the dust and ashes of our desires, our regrets, fermented into bitterness; we all know what it is to be hungry.

So if, after our prayer, we like the Pharisees and the scribes, like Jonah, and like the elder brother, are in our hearts still grumbling a little at life and luck, at the love that God has for our neighbour, may God meet us in the aisle and challenge our angry assumptions and convict our self-righteous hearts, unravel our regrets, and smite our sullenness, so that we might also know God’s mercy, God’s compassion even for us, and feast on God’s love, and be satisfied.

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Hungry

My brother was one of those children – maybe you were, or maybe you had one like him – who would, from time to time, express his displeasure at his parents by leaving home. He would pack up his little bag with his worldly possessions – a few choice comic books, a few pennies left from his weekly allowance, his Peter Rabbit stuffed animal toy, maybe a bag of chips for the road – and he would set off, announcing his intention to leave home and make his own way in the world.

My mother didn’t take a whole lot of notice. For us, “the world” was fairly well bounded by the shops on the hill, by the main road on one side of town and by the sea on the other side, and by the lane past school, where my brother spent most of his adventurous afternoons sitting in the tree we had claimed as a den, eating his chips and reading his comics.

Our mother’s perennial prediction was, “He’ll come home when he gets hungry,” and he did.

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