Quick, quick, slow

A little Lenten story


When my children were small, I didn’t forget their names – how could I? – yet as often as not my tongue would take two or three wrong turnings on its way to the beloved standing in front of it, and bewildered.

I decided one day that it was a failure to pay attention.

I do not know if this was right or wrong, and once, anyway, the eldest called me by the cat’s name before finding the word for mother.

I do remember that when I paused, took the fraction of a breath to focus, to see the child, the wondrous creature the broke the mould of God’s image when they were born (as every child will), I rarely misspoke their name.

Lately, I’ve been confusing Wednesdays and Thursdays a lot.

I put it down to the pace of life, the busyness, a lack of sleep, too many things to plan ahead and remember and drag along and things undone and things to do.

Perhaps if I would pause for half a hair, look into the eyes of the One who created Wednesday, Thursday, and the dark times in between, I would stand less chance of stumbling.


Image: Photo by Arkadiy on Unsplash

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Living water: A love story

A sermon for the Third Sunday in Lent, Year A; John 4:5-42, the woman of Samaria at the well


In the beginning, when all was formless and void, the Spirit of God brooded over the waters of creation and brought those waters to life (Genesis 1:1-2). The Spirit didn’t only populate the waters with living things, but She formed and shaped and infused the water with life, with creation and creativity and sustaining, even healing properties. In the beginning, when the Spirit of God brooded over the face of the deep, living water happened.

There is more to this story than we see on the surface, deep as it is, buried under the bucket wheel of the well at Sychar, in the heart of Samaria. 

The well at which Jesus and the woman of Samaria meet has a long and deep history, stretching back to the legends of the patriarchs: Isaac, Jacob, Joseph, and his brothers. And in that family history, when a man meets a lovely woman beside a well, and asks her for water, it should be the beginning of a love story, of a marriage made by divine coincidence and the alignment of ancestors (see Genesis 24,29). 

On the surface, they appear to come from different traditions, diverged long ago after the exile and before the restoration of the temple; but beneath their divisions lie the legends of the ancestors, and their love stories, contracts made out of meetings beside the well, covenants made with the living God. Read in a certain way, the banter between Jesus and the woman can sound almost like a flirtation; but the spark is the long, slow heat of the love of God that has drawn each of them to an understanding of how God so loves the world.

In the noonday, the sun has stood still as they linger in the light of eternity.

“But do not ignore this one fact, beloved, that with the Lord one day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like one day.” (2 Peter 3:8)

No wonder the disciples are lost on their return. They are distracted by day to day divisions and details; Jesus and the woman are on a whole other timescale. By asking about her life, breaking open her personal history, he brings that, too, into their scheme of eternity; hence, she tells the city that he has told her everything that she has ever done …

The disciples, when they went to the city, were focused on buying bread, or something to eat to get them through the journey through uncomfortable territory and out of there. But the woman feeds her people with the gospel – Come and see, she says. Can this be the Messiah?

Jesus tells his disciples, confused and bewildered as they are, in essence to be grateful, for they are reaping what others have sown. They are living into and off of the labours of others. The grace that they are witnessing and experiencing in their travels with Jesus is the product of the labour of the Spirit of God, who brooded over creation and laboured it into life.

And what are we to take from this encounter, if not that every person we encounter, however estranged by personal circumstance, history, demographic, presentation; everyone we come across, dressed in a habit or done up in drag, delivering packages or driving us mad, smiling or scowling at a cruel world – every person we meet has been laboured into being by that Spirit who brooded over the waters of creation, the waters of God’s womb. Every person we meet is a product of that love story, a love child of the living God, who bears God’s image. 

If we are bewildered by them, or feel divided from them, perhaps it is worth remembering that we have only walk-on parts in their love story, which stretches into eternity. Others have laboured, and we enter into their labour, and reap from it.

One day, I met a woman by the lake. Now, where I was brought up, we didn’t really talk much to strangers, except to pass the time of day. And, at least for now, in the quiet of the day, this woman was quite visibly the only Black woman at the beach, where she had never been before, which was foreign to her. Perhaps I looked just odd enough myself, emerging from a swim, a deep dive into the well while everyone else was respectably dry, that she thought it worth the risk of talking to me, asking me to take her picture in front of the water. And then, for a few minutes set aside from our separate days, she invited me into her story. With the lake as our matchmaker and our mediator, we didn’t forget our different backgrounds and journeys, but they were united by this moment, in which we were two women drawn together by the water.

In the beginning, when all was formless and void, the Spirit of God brooded over the waters of creation and brought those waters to life. The Spirit didn’t only populate the waters with living things, but She formed and shaped and infused the water with life, with the love of God. In the beginning, when the Spirit of God brooded over the face of the deep, living water happened.

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Thaw

A little Lenten story, based on Psalm 104:29-30:
When you hide your face, they are dismayed; when you take away their breath, they die and return to their dust.
When you send forth your spirit, they are created; and you renew the face of the ground.


The sun turns a cold shoulder,
shrugging with it its blanket of warmth.
The earth shivers with heat’s dissipation.
The water quakes
and waves are frozen in their disarray.
The lake looks like someone
whose mother said if you make that face
and the wind changes you’ll be stuck that way.

I heard of frog whose heart can survive the freezing.
Turn your face toward us;
melt our marrow into living water.

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Living water

A little Lenten story


Bundled into the car by night to avoid the crowds
(it didn’t always work; there was that time
when the silver scales of traffic sat basking
for hours between the impossibly bright sky
and the impossibly black tarmac;
with sticky feet we wandered the motorway,
weaving between overheated motors
to the ice cream van that had opened its awning,
yawning for customers before
the freezer gave out),
under the observant lens of Venus,
following the isthmus until day, when all around us
we would see the sea: the brine of God’s womb,
the animistic fluid of creation.

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A meditation on the Cross

I imagine they made it of living wood; 
the tree itself shared your fate,
cut down in service of hateful violence,
its beauty overlooked, its sacrifice, 
turning our exhaust into air, sweet bitterness 
of fruit and pollen, its praise of heaven, 
limbs raised high, razed to the ground 
with you. They did not see 
or understand that its roots 
already harrowed earth 
so that from its demise 
a thousand creatures might arise, 
give thanks to their Creator 
for the tree of life.


This meditation also appears at the Episcopal Journal

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Running out of water in the holy lands

A little Lenten story


First in the north, 
between fruit trees and shade, 
it seemed it should be more difficult 
than this to die, 
except for the envy 
of avocadoes and apricots, 
hoarding the hidden streams 
of mercy for themselves;

It made more sense
in the south, where sand slips
beneath the feet, dry
as a memory carved into crumbling 
rock, worn away by storms 
long forgotten by the sky.

In between – 
because when will I learn – 
somewhere on the roadside, 
rescued by the kindness of strangers 
who made their children share 
with the foreign fool 
something of their life.

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Sinking sand

A little Lenten story


An English seaside town, its name suffixed with something left behind by the Romans. A sandy beach with buckets and spades, Punch and Judy, donkey rides, sandwiches gritty with their namesake, seagulls looking for leftover ice cream cones. At low tide, the channel drains like a bathtub toward the ocean, exposing broad mudflats. Sent to wash off her sandpaper ankles, a child might find herself sucked knee-deep into the mire. A slosh and a paddle in the sea still leave the dilemma of how to come back clean. The little pail of water she could scoop in the shallows would not do the trick; the stuff was too sticky. Did they not know, the weary ones worn out by a day of childish joy, who sent her to wash the evidence away, that there was no way, unless someone were to carry her?


A note on the featured image: this beach is not that beach.

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Born of water and the Spirit

I am not preaching this Sunday, and there was no little Lenten story/legend this morning, so consider this an offering to replace them both.

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You know, although it wasn’t recorded,

that when God made Adam —

dust of the earth in human form —

there was water.

Imagine it: trying to breathe life

into dust — it went

everywhere,

and everywhere was so new.

The bible says, there were streams

bubbling up from the underground,

secret sources whispering,

“psst”

            God

scooped a palmful of water,

pressed the dust into beauty,

breathed life, Spirit —

call it what you will —

that first kiss left traces of mud

on the lips of them both.

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Nicodemus said to him, “How can anyone be born after having grown old? Can one enter a second time into the mother’s womb and be born?” Jesus answered, “Very truly, I tell you, no one can enter the kingdom of God without being born of water and Spirit.” (John 3:4-5)

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Things that do not exist

A little Lenten story


who gives life to the dead 
and calls into existence the things that do not exist
(Romans 4:17c)

Taken out of context it reads like a ghost, 
like the time I conjured up a cat 
in the attic that leapt like a flame 
and vanished along with its own shadow 
when I was a child. 

These days, the shadows are memories heaped 
in piles of dust and ashes and old photograph 
albums, and stories I could swear
I never heard, and yet somehow
I remember.

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Saint Non

A little more Lenten legend. The homily was delivered at Trinity Cathedral’s Evensong on St David’s Day; Dewi’s mother, Non, who figures prominently in the legends, is celebrated the next day, on March 2nd.

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On the night that David – Dewi Sant – was born, a violent storm gripped the land of Wales and shook it, such that no one alive could venture out. The stars were ripped apart by lightning, and the thunder growled like a beast scenting its prey. In fact (or in legend, at least), there was a brutish tyrant who had heard from the druids of the imminent birth of a sainted child and who wanted, like the dragon of the Revelation, to snatch him from his mother’s birthing bed, but heaven and nature conspired to keep him from harm. The would-be evil-doer was hemmed in by the storm, and only over David’s mother, Non, the midnight sun shone as though to bathe her in the glory of God as she laboured.[i]

David – Dewi Sant – was a man full of such contrasts. His mother was Non. Recognized as a saint herself, she was a woman of great faith, virtue, inward and outward beauty. His father, on the other hand, a king of sorts – I hesitate to say it – assaulted sweet Non. The very earth was so shocked by the violation that in sympathy with the young woman, and to protect her and keep her and the nascent Dewi safe, that it broke open, forming a refuge complete with a rock bed to pillow her head and her feet.

As he grew in physical and spiritual maturity, David was sent forth to found monasteries, religious houses, which he did from Glastonbury and Bath, and across Wales as far as the western sea, at the place now known as St David’s. In his monasteries he created such rules of life as kept the monks busy throughout the hours of the clock, working by day and praying by night, to give no opportunity for temptation. According to his hagiographer, Rhygyvarch, from whose Life of David most of this legendary information is gleaned, Dewi Sant modeled himself after the desert fathers in austerity and regulation.

And yet by doing so he freed himself to a marvellous compassion.

He was known to feed and to heal the hungry, the bereft, and the blind. When it came to dinner at the monastery, while the meals were mostly bread and water, it is reported that “they provide for the sick and those advanced in age, and even those wearied by a long journey, some refreshments of a more appetizing sort, for one must not weigh out to all in equal measure”. He understood the wearied human need for kindness. When he was summoned to an urgent church council, David hesitated on the way when he heard weeping and lament. He turned aside, while his companions hurried on to satisfy those awaiting him, and upon turning he found a widow whose son had died. And like the prophets of old, the deep compassionate prayer of Dewi Sant, and his tears, which watered the boy’s face, restored him to his life.

So goes the legend. Because, as the apostle writes in his letter to the Thessalonians, that while the saint labours and toils, so it is not in order to lay their burden upon others, but to free them to see the gentleness of Christ, and the kindness of his call, understanding that religion is nothing if it does not ground itself and grow in love(1 Thessalonians 2:7b-12).

St David’s Day, being March 1st, falls frequently within Lent, when tradition has us lean toward some austerity of life, some provision for penance, some fasting and discipline. Yet in Wales, it is (I am “reliably” informed by clergy Twitter) always a feast day, celebrated with enthusiasm, because religion is nothing if it does not lead to the celebration of the mercy and goodness of God, who has given us life, who has fed us with love, our rock and our refuge, who receives all pilgrim spirits that come that way. Lenten discipline is not worth its bread and salt unless it leads us to a greater understanding of the love with which God envelops us, and which God would call out of us.

When David was born, and heaven and earth conspired to keep him and his mother safe from predatory evil, the earth split open once again, in sympathy with her birth pangs, and the rock on which she leaned melted like wax to take the imprint of her hand. Dewi was born into deep mercy.

While she was pregnant with him, Non had gone to a church to make her offering, and heard a certain preacher who found himself, upon her secret arrival, suddenly devoid of the power of divine proclamation, although he could still speak of earthly things. When he found Non, and spoke with her, the priest realized that it was the overwhelming grace contained in the child of her womb that had silenced his fine words: the life of David – Dewi Sant – would itself bear greater witness than a preacher’s words ever could to the strange, creative, earthy, and irrepressible love of God.

Amen


[i] All biographical and legendary details are from Rhygyvarch’s Life of David, translated and edited by A.W Wade-Evans (SPCK, 1923), digitized and accessed at https://archive.org/stream/MN5136ucmf_5/MN5136ucmf_5_djvu.txt

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