A Gethsemane prayer

For once, just for once you tried
to lay your burdens, those acquired
from crowds and children,
a collection of tax collectors,
sinners and scribes along the way –
for once, just for once you tried
to lay them on the shoulders of
the strongest men, sons of thunder,
who sank like stones into slumber.
Your light and easy yoke overcame
their heavy lids, their heavy hearts.
Just once you tried, and we let you down.

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The Baptism of Our Lord

Today’s sermon began with yesterday’s story about Noah’s dove…

Is this what Jesus meant, when he told his cousin John that he must be baptized to fulfill all righteousness: that he would have to go back to the beginning, when the Spirit of God brooded like a bird over the waters of creation; through the Flood, when the watery chaos was release and began again with the flight of the dove; through the wilderness, where living water was struck from the rock to slake the thirst of the people of God and save them; that he would fulfill all righteousness by redeeming all of history through the cycle of water which runs from the beginning to the present moment, the waters that run deep and fall from the sky, in a living representation of the relationship of heaven and earth? *

I once attended a baptism where most of the congregation were strangers to the church, yet they gathered around the font ready to celebrate the anointing of their child, their beloved, his adoption into the family of the church and the setting of Christ’s seal upon his head as the beloved child of God. Despite their own day-to-day ambivalence about the stories of faith and their brooding feelings of uncertainty about God, the symbols of water, of oil, of the cross and the dove were strong enough to pull them in with their gravitational forces and bring this family to the font. Sacraments are powerful things; stories have a strong grip.

Anyway, at the end of the service, the announcement was made that there would be a retiring collection. A receptacle had been placed at the back of the church, in the porch, or the narthex if you like, to receive the people’s monetary offerings. I was there to serve as acolyte, altar guild and general factotum, so I got everything squared away and then I went next door to the vicarage for a cup of tea. The priest who had performed the baptism was quite frustrated with his unchurched congregation, it turned out, because on their way out of the church, looking for the receptacle to receive their retiring collection, they had lit upon the holy water stoop and decided that this must be it. Whether they confused it with a wishing well or why they thought they would be expected to place their donations in water, who knows? At any rate, they had generously filled up the thing with their filthy lucre, and my friend was now fulminating about the need to empty it and refill, restore and reconsecrate the whole kit and caboodle.

His wife, herself a priest, and I looked at one another and wondered together why it should be that the money should profane the holy water, rather than the water consecrating the money?

It is true that the energy of sin will try to push back the power of the water to cleanse and to refresh. It wasn’t long after the waters of creation were separated from the earth that sin stalked the land; it didn’t take long after the flood for Noah’s family to find new ways to fall short of the ideal; it didn’t take long for the Israelites sustained by living waters in the desert to forget the Lord their God and dance before golden idols. We introduce our own baptism by rejecting sin and Satan and turning away from wickedness, only to remember right away in our baptismal covenant that there will be occasions when we will indeed fall into sin, and will need God’s help to repent and return to the Lord. We know it. We know ourselves Sunday by Sunday to be washed clean by our worship, only to head back out into a world fraught with opportunities to spill sin on ourselves.

But sin will not win. Jesus submitted to the baptism of John and to the history of the living waters of God so that we know, wherever and whenever we are, that we who are born of water and of the Holy Spirit are consecrated, cleansed, redeemed, and sealed as Christ’s own forever. No matter what happens, no matter our doubts, our shame, our mistakes, nothing can pollute the Sacrament that has sealed us as beloved children of God. Instead of seeing ourselves profaned by the world in which we live and move and have our being it is our call, as those consecrated to God, to spread that holiness into the world, to use our sanctification to share the Spirit of God with those who need it.

In the story, God said that there would never be another flood to cover the whole earth with the waters of creation and begin again. Instead, there has been a lot of hard work, on both sides of heaven, day by day to restore and refresh and repent and return, and the work continues. We are called day by day to live into our own baptismal covenant, our own post-flood promises to continue in prayer, in proclamation, in protecting and upholding the dignity of the poor and those in need, in repentance. We are called to the work of sanctification, to spread the holiness that we have received, the love of God, to the corners of our world where it is tainted by discrimination, injustice, suffering and sin.

And Jesus, descending into the water and rising again, seeing the heavens opened, tells us that in every drop of water that we drink, in every lakescape that we see, in every sweat that we wipe from our brows, he is with us, reminding us that we are beloved children of God, made for holiness, washed clean and set free to proclaim the glory of God.

There may be, if you will allow one more flight of imagination, a postscript to the dove’s story. It is three years later, and she has found herself once more cooped up as she was in the ark, amongst the bustle and crush of other birds and animals, supervised by a gaggle of anxious humanity, in an enclosed space. She hears a voice, strangely familiar, and there is and a ripple, a wave, a rush of sound rising towards her. The people scatter, the cages crash and splinter; freed from her captivity, she flutters up to find her olive-skinned saviour breathing heavily among the remains of the money-changers tables and chairs. The temple courtyard is open to the sky, and she flies out once more, forever seeking new beginnings, new life, in a world washed clean.

*Tertullian, On Baptism, http://www.newadvent.org/fathers/0321.htm

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The dove

Back in the days of Noah, the heavens were opened and it rained for forty days and nights, and there was a flood. As you may remember, Noah and his family survived the deluge aboard an ark, onto which they packed all of the animals of the earth so that they might also survive and continue once the earth had been washed clean. On this ark, amongst the other animals and living things, was a dove. After the rain had stopped, after the wind had whipped up a foam on the flood and started to evaporate some of the excess water back into the sky, back behind the sluice gates of heaven, Noah decided it was time to find out whether there was, in fact, any chance of a new life on a washed-clean earth. He sent out birds to survey the scene; first a raven, which came up empty, then the dove, who first of all came up as empty as the raven, but who on her second flight of fancy found an olive twig, signs of food and fertile land beyond the floodwaters. I don’t know why Noah sent her out again, but he did, and the third time she did not return.

I don’t know why she didn’t come back; Noah guessed that she had found herself an island on which to build a nest and begin again, as he was getting ready to do – but why would she try that all alone? It makes little sense.
I wonder, instead, if the dove, exploring the clean, fresh air, so excited to be out of the ark and its staleness, spread her wings so far that she glimpsed the doors of heaven receding, closing on the deluge, swinging back into place in the dome of the sky, and at the last possible moment, when it was too late to turn back or change her mind, she slipped through the gap and found herself caught up into the heavens, the forerunner of folks like Elijah, a prophet of olive trees and new growth, new life, rewarded by her own assumption into heaven on chariots of condensed water instead of fire.

Imagine her delighted recognition when the heavens eventually opened up once more and she saw below her water, water washing clean and restoring the balance of creation; water cleansing the people and the covenant; water contained and used judiciously by God, not this time a deluge, but a baptism of living water and new life. She saw Jesus stand up out of the water like an olive tree stretching its branches towards the sky. She remembered the catch in her breath – she had almost fallen when she saw the olive tree after the flood, and knew that God had not forgotten them, and that life could, would after all begin again – and in her excitement, remembering, she once again stumbled and fell, and caught herself by the wings, and swooped and dove on the currents of the breath of God, falling like thunder from the open gates, arriving on a sprinkling of words, “This is my Son, my beloved.”

“The appearance of the symbolic dove has occasioned much speculation. Since Tertullian it has often been connected with Noah’s dove: the former dove announced deliverance from the flood, the latter dove deliverance from sins.” Oxford Bible Commentary, John Barton & John Muddiman (eds) (Oxford University Press, 2001), p.851

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In the bleak midwinter

I would like, if it will, for time to freeze,
stand still so that breath becomes redundant,
superfluous steam in the empty air.
The beauty of the snow falls on a bleak,
not a meek heart, burning with cold fire
against the siren winter sunlight
with her false promise and steel claws
dangling shimmering hope, icicles suspended over
unwary patrons with a spring in their step.
I should like for time to freeze until the seasons fade, flame out,
until my cold soul melts, relaxing iron bonds and
puddles, cool and reflective under the blue-gray sky.

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Day 36: remaining

A crossover from the church bible challenge blog, just because I kind of liked it.

epiphanyeuclid's avatarEpiphany's Bible Challenge

Exodus 40; Psalm 30; Mark 3

“Whenever the cloud was taken up from the tabernacle, the Israelites would set out on each stage of their journey; but if the cloud was not taken up, then they did not set out until the day that it was taken up.”

A lesson in not getting ahead of God.

A parable of patience.

Oblivion to the signs of the timeless leads only to oblivion itself;

haste makes waste.

Forty years is but forty winks in the eyes of The Lord.

How long, O Lord, how long?

Silence, say the smoke signals; patience.

Follow me. You will not lead me on;

I will not steer you wrong.

A parable of patience;

a lesson in listening,

in not getting ahead of God.

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The Feast of the Epiphany at the Church of the Epiphany

The Feast of the Epiphany at the Church of the Epiphany.

The first feast of the Epiphany was the revelation of God’s love to the world through the birth of Jesus Christ, and the proclamation of that birth and its promise throughout the nations, not only through the usual channels – the prophets of Israel, the preaching of the Temple, the covenant of the chosen people – but in a direct and unmistakable message to the wise men of the east that God had chosen to be born in Bethlehem, a small city to the south of Jerusalem; chosen to be born as prince and pauper all rolled into one, as king of the Jews and ruler of the whole world, wrapped in cloth and lying in a feeding trough. Incongruous is not the word. Ironic barely hints at it. Unmistakable might. With all of those angels and stars and shepherds and wise men, there was no mistaking that something truly divine had happened – an Epiphany.

Some heard it through the music of the spheres. Some discerned it through studying star charts – science and mathematics applied divinely. Some dreamt of it. Some found it after years of waiting in faithful temple worship, and found their lives to be completed by it.

Some were disturbed by it, frightened, and all Jerusalem with him, because as often as they worshipped in the temple and invoked God’s name, they never really expected that God would answer, and it was disconcerting to think that God might, in fact, still be involved, still be interested in their lives. How many times had Herod prayed along with his people for a Messiah, only to be dumbfounded, terrified and driven genocidally mad when his prayers were answered?

A side note: it is not unimportant that the wise men came from the East. Why not from the west, from Rome or Greece or Gaul? Maybe in part to undermine the wisdom of the empire, but also in the scriptures of Genesis and the early stories of the Bible, east was the direction that took the people away from God. East was as far as you could get from God. Adam and Eve left Eden by the eastern gate; Cain, the murderous son of Adam and Eve who killed his brother, “went away from the presence of the Lord” by settling in the land of Nod, “east of Eden.” To summon the men from the East, in the terms of the story, God reached as far as God could, to the people as far from Eden, as far from the promise of paradise as God could, in order to cover the whole world, those found, those lost, and everyone in between.

Saul was truly lost. He was so lost that even after they crucified Jesus, he carried on persecuting his disciples for daring to preach the gospel, to suggest that God had done something new, had carried out a resurrection and a salvation and laid a new foundation for the kingdom of God. He was so lost that on the road to Damascus, out to do more persecuting, he found himself unable to see which way to turn, until finally he asked the way, and heard the voice of Jesus calling him back to the way of life, the way of peace, the way of salvation. His was a less gentle epiphany than that of the wise men; a brighter light and a ruder awakening. It was frightening, to be so directly confronted by the truth of the gospel. It was certainly unmistakable.

Having found his way, Saul, who was renamed Paul, became, as he said, “a servant of the gospel… to make everyone see what is the plan of the mystery hidden for ages in God who created all things; so that through the church the wisdom of God in its rich variety might now be made known.”

Through the church, the wisdom of God in its rich variety might now be made known.

We are called as the church, in this church, to be an epiphany for the world, the means by which God demonstrates the reach of God’s mercy, the sureness of God’s embrace, the reality of God’s salvation embodied in Jesus, available to all.

That sounds daunting, maybe even frightening. But it starts simply, with recognizing, and remembering, and realizing where our own epiphanies are to be found. Is it in the music? Is it in the stars, or the sun, or the snow? Is it in the sleeping beauty of a child or a lover, or in the storm over the lake? Is it in the scientific precision of a world of intricate detail and wild wonder? Is it in the Sacrament, the holy mystery hidden for ages in God who created all things, so that through the church the wisdom of God in its rich variety might now be made known?

For me, it started with a few school teachers who were faithful in passing on the prayers, and it grew in the wonder of the mystery of the Eucharist, the strange but unmistakable presence of Christ in the bread and the wine, the Body and the Blood. Sometimes, it is a sunset that reminds me, often it’s a friend – not always the same one, sometimes a poem or a single phrase of music; sometimes the strangeness, the mystery of life itself draws me back into conversation with God, and finding a willing partner, I am once again struck by the revelation of God’s far-reaching embrace and dazzling light.

It is a revelation and a relationship that I would not want to live without. That is my epiphany, and when I share what I have found, what I have seen, then I am doing the work of the church, letting the variety of God’s riches be known.

It is the work of us all. Years ago, before I stood on this side of the pulpit, I met a woman who had been badly hurt by the church. I told her I was sorry, that she was right, and that I wished she would give the church a second chance, because it helped me so much despite that wrong, and it was precisely because I was not the priest of that church that I was able to tell her that I would be happy to stand by her side if she ever did want to give it a go. She never did come to church with me, but years later I spoke with the next priest that served that church, and she had gone to him, and told him her story, and asked him about arranging for the baptism of her children at a different church down the road.

I, too, am from a faraway land to the east, and unlike the shepherds, the townspeople, the midwives and innkeepers of Bethlehem, it may take me longer to get to into the light and to bring my neighbours to see the sleeping baby than for those who have always lived next door.

In plain terms, it is easier for you to sit by the side of someone you invite to church than it is for me.

The Epiphany was the revelation of God’s love to the world through the birth of Jesus Christ, God’s endless reach to the farthest wanderers in time and space to bring them back into the promise, the relationship that is our salvation, the knowledge of the love of God. Our own epiphanies continue, the little reminders reassuring us day by day that God is still involved, still interested in our lives. Often, you are that sign for one another. Our call as the Church of the Epiphany is to be the sign, the star, the Sacrament for our world, our community in this time, reminding and reassuring our neighbours that God is still with us, all of us.

We do it by donating dimes and helping those in need of a hand. We do it through sharing our worship, the hidden mysteries of music and word and Sacrament and sight. We do it when we are willing to share our own stories of how God has reached far, far to the east of our lives to call us home to Christ, when we say to a friend, a colleague, one searching for a sign in the stars, “Come, see what I have found, here in the city, so unexpected, so incongruous, yet so real.”

“Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord has dawned upon you. For behold, darkness covers the land; deep gloom enshrouds the peoples. But over you the Lord will rise, and God’s glory will appear upon you. Neighbours will stream to your light, and people to the brightness of your dawning. The Lord will be your everlasting light, and you will shine with God’s glory.” (Isaiah 60:1-3,19b/Canticle 11 paraphrase)

It is God’s promise. It is our charge. It is Epiphany.

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The Eve of the Epiphany

A side note to tomorrow’s sermon:

It is not unimportant that the wise men came from the East. Why not from the West, from Rome or Greece or Gaul? Maybe in part to undermine the wisdom of the empire, but also in the scriptures of Genesis, thestories of the early Bible, east was the direction that took the people away from God. East was as far as you could get from God. Adam and Eve left Eden by the eastern gate; Cain, the murderous son of Adam and Eve who killed his brother, “went away from the presence of the Lord” by settling in the land of Nod, “east of Eden.” To summon the men from the East, in the traditions, the conventions of the story, God reached as far as God could, to the people as far from Eden, as far from the promise of paradise as God could, in order to cover the whole world, those found, those lost, and everyone in between.

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Breast feeding in church

Breast-feeding is on the rise, but in church it’s still an issue

I saw this on Facebook this evening, and I had to wonder all over again how feeding babies ever became such a hot button issue. Admittedly, first time around was a learning experience. Still, each of my three was breastfed for an average of a year. For the youngest, it was by far the easiest way to have fresh milk preserved and available on tap in a tropical climate. Each of the three was most definitely fed in church. When my son was small I perfected the art of taking PCC (Vestry) minutes with one hand while he lay on the other arm and drank his fill. The only challenge was reading notes taken with my left hand when he needed to swap sides. The priest dreaded his weaning, noting that no one raised their voice in front of a breast feeding baby.

I wrote about baptizing boobs a while back ( https://rosalindhughes.com/2012/06/06/breasts-babies-and-baptism/ ) but for variety here is a list of some of the more unusual, far-flung, mundane or uncomfortable places I have breastfed a baby. Church doesn’t even come close.

5) Raffles Hotel, Singapore
4) an extremely crowded intercity train complete with scowling man opposite and no elbow room
3) on the roundabout at the playground
2) sitting on the floor in Maiden Erleigh public library (needs more chairs – or pews)
1) on the back of an elephant halfway down a hill in Thailand

How did this ever become an issue, and when will we grow up and get over it?

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Reflection for the turn of the year

I told you, didn’t I? I told you that
the walls were cracked and warped,
crumbling and full of rising damp and
dry rot, unfit for habitation.
But you went right ahead and moved in anyway.
First, you knocked though a few walls,
to let in some light, you said.
You seemed unconcerned that the sunshine simply
showed up the dirt; dust bunnies waltzing slowly.
Most people would build an addition,
but you reduced to rubble all the
vain architectural accretions and redundancies;
you toppled chimneys, crenellations, took out
carpets, curtains, photographs, furniture,
turned the whole place inside out, so that
a bare footprint remained behind a false front door
whilst out in the yard, a pile of rubbish threatened
to outgrow the oak trees.
You took an armchair and set it in the centre of
the cold cement foundation floor,
rubbed your hands and looked around
with something approaching glee.
“Now, where shall we begin?” you asked the clear, blue sky.

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Christmas 1

Tomorrow is children’s day at Epiphany – the children are leading us, as in “a little child” etc.
For me, poetry is timeless and ageless. The Prologue of St John might be a little obscure to the 6-year-old mind, but it is not impenetrable. So, given that the children will give most of the sermon, but might need some help summing it up, here, without the illustrations, is my children’s version of John 1:1-18 (I may or may not get around to expanding it/uploading the illustrations at a later date):

In the beginning was the Word.
(way back in the beginning, when the earth was without form, and empty, and there was darkness over deep waters – in that beginning was the Word)
In the beginning, the Word was with God. There was never a time that God remembered being without the Word, because the Word had been there since God began (which was forever ago), tickling the insides of God’s imagination.
Sometimes, the Word felt like cave drawings scratching on the insides of the Godhead.
Sometimes, the Word sounded like music. God called it, the music of the spheres, because it sang the planets into being.
Before the Word, there was nothing, not even time. But the time came for God to speak the Word.
There was something different about the light that day: the light was shining in the darkness, and the darkness chased it with shadows – but they couldn’t cover up the light, and the light shone them away, and a bright star shone in the sky and refused to stop.
Then God knew that it was time to say the Word.
So God took a big, deep God-breath (which is called ruah, or which we call the Holy Spirit) –
God took a big, deep God-breath, and God said
(very quietly, so as not to wake the baby),
Jesus

– the end (and the beginning)

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