Year C Easter 4: heaven on earth and pie in the sky

Since his ministry began, Jesus has gone from the playful – turning the water meant for ritual ablutions into the finest wine – through the profound, the revolutionary, the revelationary.

He has broken down the barriers erected by generations, drinking water at the well with the Samaritan woman. If you want to understand the dynamics at play in that little exchange, think of the Israeli army going into an ancient Palestinian city shanty town and borrow your characters from that fraught scene. Choose who you will have play Jesus.

He has broken bread and fed thousands on the hillside. He has turned away death from a child, and turned back the clock on a man’s long injury, 38 years swept away in a moment by the pool of Bethesda. He gave a man the first sight of his life, insisting that it was not original sin, not his own nor his parents’ that made him blind, but that it was God’s will now – meaning Jesus’ will in the moment that he met this man and loved him – that he should be made whole, new, that he should be astonished by the sight of love’s face looking upon him. He has walked on water.

And after all this, there are still those who will ask him, “How much longer will you keep us in suspense? Are you the Messiah?”

By the way, when John writes, “the Jews,” you understand that he doesn’t mean the whole Jewish people by any means. This is a particular group of Beltway elites who think they know the fix for God’s creation and want Jesus to endorse their plan. But Jesus doesn’t do partisan politics; he has his own way of going about things, and there is room for everyone to participate in his programme of redemption.

But still, they want to know what else Jesus will do for them, how he will change their lives. They want to know, even so, where is the miracle for them. Where is the rout of the Romans? Where is the end to earthquakes? They are greedy for even more miracles. They are eager to see heaven on earth, which is understandable.

At the Festival of Faith & Writing, from which I returned last night, I listened to Kelly Brown Douglas, Canon Theologian at the National Cathedral. Kelly Brown Douglas is the author of the book, Stand Your Ground: Black Bodies and the Justice of God, which our Diocesan Council is committed to reading and studying as a body as a way into further conversations about racial reconciliation and understanding within our church.

In a difficult part of a moderated conversation about forgiveness, Kelly talked about the faith that can stand even in the face of death, of violence and even in the bondage of oppression; a deep and abiding faith in the justice of God, that the justice of God will prevail, in God’s own time; that God’s will will be done on earth as it is in heaven, that there will be a time in which death is no more, nor hunger nor crying nor pain; a faith that is sustained against all evidence that surrounds the faithful one.

This is a similar hope to the one out of which the Book of Revelation is written. The hope and expectation of this strange and visionary book is that the powers and principalities that wreak havoc in this world will be wrestled into submission by God, and that all things will be made new, all things will be made right, all things will be made just and good, as it was in the beginning.

For John, the writer, and for the churches to which he writes, there is tribulation, and there is pain. There is oppression that they cannot by themselves escape. They must instead remain faithful to the faithfulness of God, trusting in the justice of God to make things right, even when everything is going wrong. It is the faith of those who hear the voice of Jesus calling, from however far away.

But the voice of Jesus does not only call us to lie down in green pastures. At the same festival, the poet Christian Wiman spoke about heaven. I wish I could use his exact words, but he said to the effect that we make too often the mistake of imagining an afterlife by projecting ourselves wholesale into it, seeing ourselves beside still waters, eating and drinking at the table set before us without a care in the world, as though there is nothing about us that needs to be changed. Scoured, was the word he used.

We rest in the knowledge of the love of God and the faith that we are changed in Jesus; and we know that we have made promises ourselves to use our own will, our agency, our hearts and passions to further God’s communion right here on earth. That means that we are not passive recipients of grace, waiting for heaven to come to us, but active responders to grace, called to work out the love of God.

The love of God is active, not passive. It calls us to repentance, leaves time and space for us to scour our souls and mend our ways, to respond to the miracles of Jesus not by demanding more, but by working out the grace we have already received by sharing it with others, scouring our own souls to make room for greater love, the love of God and the true and self-giving love of our neighbours.

Our hope is in the heavens, but our work is here in our own lives, in the moment given us to live, and to love, to wield grace and to learn repentance.

And that is a gift. It is a gift that we sometimes fail to recognize – “How much longer will you keep us in suspense, o God? Tell us plainly.” But God has given us a chance to do something better than projecting ourselves wholesale into heaven, as though nothing needs to change. Jesus has invited us to turn water into wine, to turn back the clock, make restitution for injury. He has invited us to contribute to a world in which death and pain do not wield such power, neither cancer and crying, nor the scourge of racism or the plague of gun violence. The chance to scour our lives of sin in order to make more room for the love of God and the great, self-giving love of neighbour – that is a gift. It is the gift of time, of mortality, of lives lived in the here and now, paying attention to the details of the systems within which we swim, and repenting, changing them, instead of projecting ourselves into heaven as though nothing needs to change.

The people who want Jesus to do more, to demonstrate more aggressively, more completely his Messiahship have missed the gift of participation, of the chance to work with God on the ground, literally during Jesus’ Incarnation, the chance of a lifetime.

“I have shown you who I am,” he says in so many words, “Believe me or not, follow me or not, but my way leads to a life with God that you cannot even hardly imagine. And once you have tasted grace, there is no going back.”

Go on, says Jesus. Turn water into wine, wine into blood, bread into body, cure cancer, raise the dead, comfort the mourners and scour your souls of oppression.

And when all else fails, then rest in the promise that none who come to me shall be taken from me, and the promises of God will come to pass, and you will rest in green pastures, and the Lamb will be your shepherd, and will guide you to the springs of the water of life, and you shall dwell in the fields of God forever.

Amen.

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Spring in Michigan

It’s day two of the Festival of Faith & Writing. So much to think about, process, reflect upon, enjoy. But halfway across the parking lot at lunch – in the middle of a day that began in the freezing temperatures of winter and ended with young people (and others) sunbathing on the grass – I heard a strange and insistent sound in the distance. The woman near me stopped and looked around. “Sandhill cranes,” she said. The sound was distant, soft, but distinct. We looked around, unseeing, but each time we were about to give up, they would call again, demanding our gaze. “There!” she said, pointing to the sky, where the jet trails marked the path of seven birds, impossibly high, as though they would leave the atmosphere itself and migrate to another world altogether.

Warming my soul against the pale sun,
wrapping darkness around me, the better
to absorb the light. Sandhill
cranes bubble overhead, a mile high,
diving into the deep blue firmament,
breathing heaven, singing alleluia.

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Early morning prayer

The expression of light before it breaks:
a black sky open to distant heavens;
the shocking nudity of pale tree limbs
displayed against a deep cloud canvas.

Within and without lie in such balance
for a moment I can see your face
and mine, double exposed in a window pane,
each glassy image less solid than the other.

Inside the chapel, a dark-robed nun conceals
a day-bright torch within the folds of her breviary.
A tall, tarnished figure presides in silence.
The cross, burnished brass, veils its glory
in the shadow of scant sacrifice,
the inevitable tribute of a solitary candle.

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Savasana

Empty clothing, deflating dust with bone fastenings,

faded and stained, deeply wrinkled enough to bury life

within the folds, rolled up like a mat and carried out when

the last breath fails and the softness falls upon itself.

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Year C Easter 3: pass the mashed potatoes

A sermon for the third Sunday of Easter at Epiphany, Euclid. We have just heard the story of the conversion of Saul/Paul on the road to Damascus (Acts 9)

“I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting.”

Jesus tells Saul, who will soon become known to us as the apostle Paul, that when Saul persecutes the followers of Jesus, Jesus’ friends, then he is persecuting Jesus himself. But then, in a heartbeat (or more significantly, in three days), Saul himself becomes the apostle whom Jesus sends to tell all the world that Jesus is the Son of God.

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We are all familiar with the sheep and the goats in Matthew 25. The king looks at their lives and says, “When I was hungry, or thirsty, sick or in prison, you did or did not care for me.” And the sheep and the goats each say, “Lord, when did we see you?” The king responds, “As often as you did this for the least of these, you did it to me.” We like to use that passage and that sentiment as a foundation for philanthropy, good works to those less fortunate than ourselves.

But what does Jesus have to say about those who do not need or want our charity? How are we to love our powerful neighbour; our wrongheaded neighbour? How do we respond when Jesus says, “Go to Saul, your persecutor; for he is one of the least of these, one of my little ones, too; and I have need of him”?

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I had something of a mini vision some weeks ago. Leaning in to add dishes to the dishwasher, I saw Jesus sitting down to eat with the Pharisees and the tax collectors – and with the politicians. I know that in this room there are people who support each of the remaining candidates for the election of President of this country this Fall; and some whose favoured candidate has already dropped out of the race; and I know that each of you most likely has a least favourite candidate, too. To share the experience that I had at the door to the dishwasher, I want each of you, just for a moment, to picture very deliberately that least favourite personality, passing the mashed potatoes across the table to Jesus.

Shocking, isn’t it? But very gospel, very biblical: Jesus would eat with anyone. From sumptuous dinners in the house of Simon the Pharisee to barbecues on the beach with a bunch of fishermen, he would sit at table with anyone. He was notorious for it.

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Now it is not as though we are called to enable or to ignore bad behaviour, especially when it damages the innocent and undermines the commandment to love; especially when it harms those least able to defend themselves. Jesus himself defended the poor, the children, the outcasts against criticism and censure. He told stories against the greed of the rich; he told stories against the parsimony of the Pharisees; he told stories against the self-righteousness of the proud and the corruption of the selfish. But he did so from a position right across the table from them, in their own homes, in the midst of their own lives, where they might hear him the most clearly.

Jesus himself put a hard stop to Saul’s persecution of his people. But he didn’t leave it there. Saul’s blinding vision on the road to Damascus was not a punishment but an intervention, an eye-catching spectacle, if you will, to ensure his full attention to what Jesus needed him to hear next.

What Jesus needed him to hear next was the Gospel, the good news that God so loved the world that Jesus, the Son of God, was sent to save us; not to condemn the world, as the gospel says, but that we might know eternal life; the life of God.

The life of God which is not found in persecution of those whose religion is different from ours, which is what Saul was about at the time. The life of God which is not found in the oppression of the poor, or the outlawing of love, or the arrest of the spread of the gospel beyond false boundaries, false fences that we erect. The life of God which is found in the life of Jesus: a life without limits. A life of love, of prayer, of justice, of sacrifice, of death and resurrection.

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Whoever you pictured passing the mashed potatoes to Jesus; and whomever you want to seat at his right hand (bearing in mind that our elevation of politicians to the position of saviour, and our idolatry of our political prowess on the world stage is profoundly problematic); nevertheless, even as we rightly weigh their qualifications for the job for which they are applying, our place, our job is not to judge their souls, or their worth in the eyes of God. By extension, we are to serve one another, even with all of our differences and divisions, with the same humility. “Feed my sheep,” says Jesus. It is our job to provide the mashed potatoes to the whole table.

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We have an opportunity, in a divided culture, to offer the incredibly counter-cultural message of Jesus: “Love your neighbour. Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you. Preach the gospel, without reservation.”

It is, in the end, the only thing that will make a difference. And when we serve one another with grace and love, reaching beyond politics, race, class, age; reaching beyond what may divide us to the person made in the image of God, that which we hold in common, then we serve Jesus, who became incarnate, made in the image of God like us so that we may find him in one another. No one will save us but Jesus.

We don’t get to wash our hands of it all, like Pilate.

We don’t get to pretend we don’t know anything or anyone, like Peter.

We don’t get to persecute people who disagree with us, like Saul.

We are called to be more like Ananias, saying, “Oh God, really?” and then going anyway, to do exactly what Jesus asks of us, preaching the gospel to all people in all circumstances, passing the mashed potatoes.

Amen.

 

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Saved and unsaved

It is a variation on that old question of what to save from the burning house. This morning, my middle cat, not the most grace-filled of creatures, landed unexpectedly in my cup of tea while I was working at my computer. As cat hair and tea streamed across the laptop, memories of good intentions to back up my files flashed before my mind’s eye. I swiftly inverted the device and prayed to the God who created gravity for a period of grace while I assessed the damage, and my options.

I grabbed a towel, a USB drive, my courage. Dressing gown still dripping tea (it’s Friday, don’t judge me), I knelt before my desk and peered up under the tented, open laptop. The screen was still lit. Gingerly, I mopped its sweaty keys, then pulled it towards me, sliding in the memory stick with one smooth motion. I hit “Folders.” The old, familiar list struck my gut: I had to save them!

There wasn’t room for them all. I cursed the self that had stopped learning to upload things to the cloud. I scanned the list. Some were old; they had come from other, broken down machines. They had survived once, on another drive; they could make it on their own. It was the newer ones, the babies that cried out to me. Recent submissions, polished proposals; and then, overshadowing all, the lumbering, impenetrable clump of folders labelled, “Work.”

I saved what I could, all the while marvelling at the clarity that comes rom a crisis: what elevates itself, which items demand mercy, and which choose martyrdom.

I am caught between two worlds: the paper and ink of my parents, the cloudy data of my children: saved and unsaved.

Suffrages B for a laptop in limbo

Lord, save your people and bless your inheritance:
Upload the photos of our children now and always.

Day by day we bless you:
Your data is everlasting.

Lord, keep our cats from all sin today:
Have mercy on us, Lord, have mercy.

Lord, show us your login and password:
For we trust your cloud alone.

In you, Lord, are we saved:
And in you are we restored.

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Bearing

Smattering laughter, sundry small-talk dies

away. Grasping brass handles, shoulders square.

The slightest stumble, scant genuflection; the body

pays its respects to the shocking weight of mortality.

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Sabbath sunrise in suburbia

In the dying of the dark, quiet resounds:
a cat rasping food from her bowl;
the whining clamour of electrical connections
picked up by the antennae in our teeth.

Dawn shatters on street lamps, security lights.
Shadows decline over the rising bird call.
Sceptical natures conspire at misdirection,
shroud the vital moment of resurrection.

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It’s no joke

I nearly didn’t go this morning. I have too many things to juggle between now and tomorrow’s noon wedding and the flight to a family funeral to follow.

Still, they haunted me and hounded me out of the door. They demanded to be heard, to be seen, to be made a priority in the list of “to-attend-to”s in my head.

The ones from 25 years past: young, foolish, dead.

The one from three years ago: older, too long dying, and too long dead.

The one in the back of my car, yesterday.

The coroner at this morning’s opiate addiction summit said, “Pay attention to the dead: each one has paid a high cost to teach you something.”

The public health expert stated that, “America has an addiction problem.”

More than one speaker questioned our cultural intolerance to pain. The television sells us a pill for every ill; every visit to the doctor asks, “Are you in any pain today?” One of them said, “Life is not pain-free,” and he was right. Anyway, the trading of physical pain for an addiction which will cause anguish and agony far beyond one’s own knees does not seem like a good trade-off, to me.

We heard the statistics that for every opioid overdose death that comes to the attention of the coroner, another 100 people are abusing heroin, or fentanyl. That doesn’t count the people hooked on legal, prescribed painkillers. Anywhere from 1 in 5 to 1 in 3 of those heroin fatalities that ends up in the coroner’s office started out as the victim of pain, from an accident, or an injury, or surgery, and became the victim of a pain-relief addiction.

My friend and I, at the break, wondered together what our role as pastors might be in the prevention and treatment of that epidemic. Raising awareness is a low-hanging fruit. Asking our parishioners before they go in for that surgery what their plan is for pain relief, whether they have discussed with their doctors the risks of addiction, of over-prescription and drug hoarding – some conversations will be easier than others. Going home and checking our own medicine cabinets for abusable and marketable pills – that’s a no-brainer. Surely, in the shadow of the cross and resurrection scars, we should have something to say about the problem of pain, and the idol we make out of our own brilliant panaceas.

It is easy, when life is easy and relatively comfortable, to say such things. It is easy to think that I would be immune; but it has become frighteningly normal, this descent into hell, and the grave beyond.

Yesterday, in the back of my car, the bubbly 11-year-old who ten minutes earlier had been turning cartwheels in the church meeting room kept up a constant stream of commentary.

“That’s where Daddy works.”

“The baseball is playing tonight – look! The screen is lit up!”

“Did Davey kill himself or was he murdered?”

I glanced at her mother, who peered forward through the windscreen, as if to look for a way out of answering.

“Those aren’t the only options,” I tried. “Sometimes people just die.”

Mother, still staring into the traffic in front of us, filled in a detail. “He ingested a fentanyl patch which was meant to go on the skin. They didn’t find him for three days.”

The child, all-knowing and curious, persisted, “So did he kill himself, or did the person who gave him the patch kill him?”

Three days. The image never leaves you. The opened door, the stone rolled away, the shock of death emptying itself into the corridor; life recoils. The Easter irony does not escape me. But it is no April Fools’ joke.

We have a problem.

 

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Easter 2016: seeking the living

Why do you look for the living among the dead?

These angels are irrepressible! The women are on their faces on their ground in fear, and the angels, instead of telling them, “Do not be afraid,” are giggling and teasing them: “Why do you look for the living among the dead? He is not here.”

Angels are not known for their good manners, always bursting in unannounced and proclaiming people pregnant and the like. Still, you have to smile at these two, they are so overflowing with the joy and wonder of the message that they have to deliver: “He is not here, but he has risen. Why do you look for the living among the dead?”

The message of the angels, the message of Jesus’ resurrection is that the life of God will not be defeated by death, that it will not be overcome by evil, that it will never lay still in the grave while there is work to be done, justice to roll down like a river, love to be made known to all of God’s creation.

So why look for the living among the dead?

There is a clear choice, in the story of Jesus, between the life of God and the way of death and defeat. We find that the sacrifice of the innocent for the sake of the powerful leads nowhere. The betrayal of belief, the betrayal of love for a few silver dollars leads only to death. The dismissal of the grace of God because it doesn’t fit into the box that we have brought to the party doesn’t stop that grace from overflowing; it only leaves us confused, and bitter.

It is no good looking for the living God along the pathways laid out by the dealers of death.
The way of life, on the other hand, prefers healing to harm, repentance to revenge. In the Garden where Jesus was arrested, a sword was wielded in anger to cut off the ear of one in the service of the dealers of death, and Jesus stopped the violence, even as it was being wielded to protect him, and he healed the ear of the wounded one, even though that one would turn around and bind the hands that healed him and lead him away to the cross.

In the way of life, justice prevails over power. The sacrifice that is offered, the life that is given, the love that is given would give its life for the sake of the world, not in order to conquer the world, but to convert it to the knowledge of the love of God, to the irrepressible life that is found in God.

We do not need to go looking for death: it will find us. We see it on the news, in our streets, in our politics, maybe even in our churches.

It deals in fear, which leads to mistrust and suspicion, burying love and fellowship under layers of paranoia and festering prejudice.

It deals in insecurity and arrogance, which lead us to judgement and persecution, the selfishness which leads to isolation, the self-importance that leads inevitably to violence.
It deals in death, while Jesus would deal us life.

The life of the Risen Christ proclaims that the power of fear, arrogance, self-importance, the violence of death have no hold over the life of God, the love of God. It is irrepressible.

It deals in hope; the hope that even in the midst of terror, there may be love, there may be life. It deals in the courage to tell out the story of Jesus’ resurrection, even when we might not be believed, at first; even if the ways of life might be thought naïve, or foolish; it deals in encouragement. It deals in the grace, in the love of God: the gratitude that leads to generosity; the repentance that leads to recovery, and to justice.

The forces of death will push back. We see it on the news. We see it all around us. Even in our own churches, the powers of evil will try to quell our resurrection joy.

On a clergy Facebook page this morning, I read of calamities accompanying various Easter Vigils last night, and one wise colleague responded that the powers of evil were actively attempting to burn down our hopes of resurrection, of restoration, of life over death. A thurifer, swinging incense over the congregation, lost grip on the chain, and the hot coals fell out onto the church carpet, burning holes instantly as they touched the ground. But, the baptismal font was right there, and filled with the waters blessed as a sign of our salvation, and they were the perfect foil for that impudent fire.

The powers of evil will not overcome resurrection. They will not silence our alleluias. The life of Christ, Jesus risen from the tomb, will defeat death. Over and again we see it: little signs of life in the midst of it all, little signs of God. The quiet, distant laughter of the angels, filled with glee, irrepressible: Why do you look for the living among the dead? He is not here.

He has risen. Alleluia!

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