One in a hundred

A sermon for Year C, Proper 19, and the fifteenth anniversary of the September 11 terror attacks, from the Church of the Epiphany, Euclid, OH.

It’s easy to wax allegorical about the parable of the one hundredth sheep. I could enjoy the idea that God would leave behind ninety-nine also-ran sheep to come looking only for me. But how often have I been lost, and would I expect God always to pay attention only to me? Of course, in an infinite God there are infinite possibilities, and in ninety-nine out of one hundred of them I am the sheep left behind in the wilderness. And how does that feel?

Then there’s the parable of the lost coin.

It’s clear that the stories go together, but if I am the lost sheep, and God is the shepherd, then I am also the lost coin, and God had so many of us that She lost track. Or was She counting us, and dozing before the fire, so that I slipped between the cushions of the universe without God noticing?

The Psalms tell of One who never slumbers nor sleeps, but the parable tells a different story.

And who are God’s neighbours, God’s peers, invited to party over a spring cleaning session that turns up loose change from under the sofa?

I wonder if we need to take another look at this allegory of a parable.

(I am indebted to Amy-Jill Levine, Short Stories by Jesus: The Enigmatic Parables of a Controversial Rabbi (HarperCollins, 2014) for provoking new readings of familiar stories.)

What if I am the woman who has plenty – nine out of ten, which is an A-grade life, after all. What if I have all of that, but I am missing the piece that makes life whole, complete. Worth living. What if I have lost sight of the one piece of treasure that really counts?

“Store up treasure in heaven,” advises Jesus elsewhere. Treasure God. Treasure the one currency that underpins all of the commerce of life, relationship, joy.

If that is what I have lost, then it is worth turning everything upside down, moving every piece of furniture, routine, habit, every strut and structure to find that one piece of currency without which none of the rest works, or counts. And what joy, what cause for celebration, when it is found.

That could make some sense to me.

Oh, but then am I the shepherd of that relationship? Is it my responsibility to tend it, to feed it, to set out to find it when I have lost track of it among the ninety-nine other claims on my time and attention? Couldn’t I just wait for God to come and find me?

The perfect thing about a parable is that it is not a fixed allegory, where this means that. It is not a code to be broken, but an invitation to find ourselves in the lifelong story of God’s relationship with the sheep of His pasture, the people of God’s hand.

So in that spirit, here’s another possibility. What if we think of the shepherd, or the woman, as the church, and we are collectively responsible for the sheep, for the treasure, for the currency of place, time, community, not only dollars and cents but souls placed within our care. And what if we find that we are slipping, losing track of those whom we think and know deep down we love and value, but of whom we have lost sight.

Is it their task to find their way to us? Or ours to pursue them, leaving safe in their pews the ninety-nine, or the forty-nine, or whatever the count may be? Setting out with loving inquiry and concern for the safety and place of the lost one.

Before you get too far along the path of noticing that the shepherd is employed, contracted and commissioned especially to tend to the sheep, notice too that the woman is in an ordinary domestic setting, and it is within her own home and family and circle of friends that she seeks and sweeps and celebrates.

Of course, one thing to remember in this version of the parable is that the repentant sinner in this scene is not the sheep which doesn’t even know that it is lost, but the shepherd who redeems his dereliction of duty by going back for his missing charge. A coin is almost certainly exempt from sin or repentance, but the woman who decides to clean up her act and get her – ahem – items together is the one for whom the angels sing out their joy.

In any case, it is we who are called to repent; to turn and to seek God. God who has never lost sight of us; never stopped loving us.

Fifteen years ago today, some brave people stepped up to seek and serve the lost and the missing. Many laid down their lives out there in the dust and ashes, sweeping for survivors, restoring hope when all seemed lost.

And this is where the parable gets flipped.

Ninety-nine percent of us were at a loss that day, and afraid. Only a few found their feet on solid ground. Like those few in a plane over Pennsylvania, bound for the Pentagon. When all seemed irretrievably lost, they found the way of the cross. They stood as with Jesus before Pilate, saying, “You do not take my life from me, because I give it freely, for the sake of strangers.” Each life offered for the sake of saving ninety-nine more.

There are those for whom the losses of that day will last a lifetime. There are those for whom the losses of everyday life and love are sufficient to give pause, afraid to trust in the security of God’s shepherding skills.

Paul has a word for those lost sheep, assuring them out of his own story of being lost and found that the overwhelming grace of God is sufficient to all of our needs; that the love and faith of Jesus is more than enough to save us from our own lost selves.

However we read the parables, it is, after all, grace that pursues life in the midst of destruction; love in the face of loathing. It is grace that promises that peace will drown out violence. It is only by the grace of God, unearned treasure, that we find the will, the hope to endure, and to keep our hearts fixed on restoration, redemption, reconciliation with one another, and with God.

It is grace that allows us even in solemnity to imagine the angels rejoicing in heaven over every life, every soul that has been found to have been marked with God’s sheep-tag, pressed from God’s mould, counted as precious in God’s sight.

Amen.

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From the first letter of Paul to Timothy:
I am grateful to Christ Jesus our Lord, who has strengthened me, because he judged me faithful and appointed me to his service, even though I was formerly a blasphemer, a persecutor, and a man of violence. But I received mercy because I had acted ignorantly in unbelief, and the grace of our Lord overflowed for me with the faith and love that are in Christ Jesus.

From the Gospel according to Luke:
He told them this parable: “Which one of you, having a hundred sheep and losing one of them, does not leave the ninety-nine in the wilderness and go after the one that is lost until he finds it? When he has found it, he lays it on his shoulders and rejoices. And when he comes home, he calls together his friends and neighbors, saying to them, `Rejoice with me, for I have found my sheep that was lost.’ Just so, I tell you, there will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who need no repentance.
“Or what woman having ten silver coins, if she loses one of them, does not light a lamp, sweep the house, and search carefully until she finds it? When she has found it, she calls together her friends and neighbors, saying, `Rejoice with me, for I have found the coin that I had lost.’ Just so, I tell you, there is joy in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.”

 

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Blessings lost and found

This week’s post is late, partly because I’m on vacation, but also because I have had some struggles settling into a place of blessing in this week’s gospel reading.

It should be easy: we love the idea that God would gladly leave behind ninety-nine of you to come and find me whenever I am lost. I am, after all, that special.

But if I am the sheep, then I am also the lost coin; currency; lost between the sofa cushions of the universe, fallen out of God’s apron pockets  when She wasn’t paying attention. To me.

You see the problem.*

On the other hand, Paul has a perfect blessing nestled into his letter to Timothy this week. Perhaps that will help.

May you set out from here secure in God’s faithfulness and love;

may you find reassurance at each turning, looking to the cross of Jesus to point your way;

may resounding joy always accompany your homecoming;

and when you do find yourself lost, may the overwhelming grace of God sweep you back to where you belong,

redeemed, restored, beloved. Amen.


* For inspiration and wisdom in working through the allegorization and de-same of the parables, I recommend reading Amy-Jill Levine, Short Stories by Jesus: The Enigmatic Parables of a Controversial Rabbi (HarperCollins, 2014)

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The ghosting of a marriage

There are things they forget to tell you about being married.

They advise you not to go to bed angry, to be kind, attentive, grateful, to say seven nice things every day. They may tell you to keep communications open and honest; to retain some romantic mystery. They say, put your marriage first, or your children first, or your partner or yourself first. They never talk about who gets left behind.

They do not talk about the day that will come when you are afraid to open the wedding album. They do not mention the accumulation of ghosts. Not only the grandparents, aunts, uncles, your mother, his father. Even those as yet unborn stare tearless from the frozen faces of their parents.

You have forgotten the names of some, along the way, while you were busy putting your children, your spouse, yourself, your marriage first. They follow you with their eyes anyway, spectral-silent, demanding to be remembered.

They never told you this day would come; and so now their haunting feels something like a betrayal.

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Blessings and challenges

When I read this Sunday’s Gospel lesson, and saw that Paul’s – let’s be honest – somewhat cringeworthy letter to Philemon was also up for consideration, I wondered if I might have waited on this new, lectionary-based blessings project until after Labor Day.

But there are blessings to be found in a challenge, too. Some even seek out the hard stuff (I’m still getting over the Olympics), driving beyond what is reasonable or realistic for a person to do, always striving for greater sacrifice, deeper commitment, breaking …

May you know deep freedom.

May you make high sacrifice.

May the witness of your life and labour turn even your enemies towards God,

by the grace of God, through the sacrifice of Christ, and the inspiration of the Holy Spirit.
Amen.

Philemon 1-21; Luke 14:25-33

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The banquet

No sermon this Sunday, simply the observation that today’s Gospel whispered to me of those times that you have slipped into the back of the church, trying to melt into the shadows cast by the dark-wood pews, sure only of the sense of deep transgression stepping over that thresh-hold; only to find yourself called forward, irresistibly, by the grace of Jesus gripping you by its nail-scarred hands, drawing you to the very seat of love, feeding you with the very life of Christ, releasing you blinking and bewildered back into the sun beyond the heavy oak doors, lighter, bleaching back into the background with a snaggle-toothed smile of wonder …

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Untethered

There’s a man standing in the lake 
on his phone. From my seat between
a mallard duck and the old tyre,
I watch him, waist deep, cradling
his elbow firm against the rock
of the waves, watch the clouds scud
across the satellited sky,
seagulls screech, beach themselves,
shaking salt from their feathers
as though the ocean were nearby.

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God bless you and keep you

There is a moment towards the end of the Holy Eucharist service in the Episcopal Book of Common Prayer where

The Bishop when present, or the Priest, may bless the people.

For special services – the Thanksgiving for a Child, for example – a scripted Blessing is prescribed. The Book of Occasional Services offers some lovely seasonal examples, and Enriching Our Worship curates some more.

But for ordinary Sundays in the Book of Common Prayer, permission is given but no specific instruction as to how one might word the blessing.

The 1549 Book of Common Prayer prescribed the blessing,

The peace of God which passeth all understanding, keep your hearts and minds in the knowledge and love of God, and of his Son Jesus Christ our Lord; And the blessing of God Almighty, the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost, be amongst you and remain with you alway.

This is the blessing of my childhood, and the one to which I most comfortably revert.

Nevertheless, I am moved to try something new. Each week, until Advent 2017, I will post a blessing based in the Scriptures of the Sunday to come. I’d love to hear from you, if you use them, especially how they are received by your people and by your own spirit.

A Blessing for August 28, 2017: Year C, the Fifteenth Sunday after Pentecost (Proper 17)

Readings: Jeremiah 2:4-13, Psalm 81:1, 10-16 OR Sirach 10:12-18 or Proverbs 25:6-7Psalm 112, Hebrews 13:1-8, 15-16, Luke 14:1, 7-14

May you have confidence to say, “The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid.”

May you hear God’s Word calling you, “Friend.”

May your heart in all humility, by the daily visitation of God’s Holy Spirit, be lifted up to glory.

Amen.

(Hebrews 13:6; Psalm 118:6; Luke 14:10)

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Facing God

Isaiah 58:9b-14, Psalm 103:1-8, Hebrews 12:18-29, Luke 13:10-17

Do you notice that the affliction that has bowed the woman down, bent the back of the woman whom Jesus heals; that this affliction is named as a spirit?

It is a spirit that has degraded her body until it is bowed down to the ground. That is the spirit from which Jesus sets her free, and one would think that for this to happen, and in the synagogue no less, that her community would rejoice with her, as she immediately “stood up straight and began praising God.”

Eighteen years she had faced the floor, and as she raised her lips to sing out God’s praises, the leader of the synagogue was angry:

“There are six days on which work ought to be done; come on those days and be cured, and not on the Sabbath day!”

He was angry with the woman for getting herself straight, for standing up, for singing God’s praises from an open chest and a full throat, no more constriction and constraint.

There has to be something more to the leader’s anger than simple concern for the Sabbath law. He knows as well as Jesus does that the elders of their religion agree that the only work of the Sabbath is that of mercy, and of kindness and consideration.

But the leader of the synagogue is angry, tries to redirect his flock: “Come on the other six days to be cured!” For now, he says, all eyes should be on me, all ears tuned to my voice. I will tell you the right spirit from the wrong.

The leader of the synagogue is jealous. He is afraid that his authority might be diminished by this miracle, and he is determined that he needs to keep control over what happens in his church.

He is more personally afraid of the Spirit of God than he is of the malign spirit that has kept this woman bent to the ground, face to the floor, for eighteen long and painful years.

At least that is how he sounds to me.

We are all prone to the jealousy and control issues that the leader of the synagogue displays. We have all heard or even said, as though it were a word of comfort, “There’s always someone worse off than yourself.” What a perverse way to comfort one another – to rest in the knowledge that we are not at the bottom of the heap, that someone else’s back is bent even further to the ground than our own!

I know that the stated purpose of the phrase is to engender gratitude that we are not ourselves worse off – but the implications for those around us are dire.

It is difficult to be part of the ruling elite, or even middle management, and to root for the release of the spirit of oppression, the spirit that binds burdens to the backs of those who bear the weight of a system that piles people on top of one another like a pyramid, so that only the upper echelons can stand up straight, and sniff the fresh air, and feel the lightness of the breeze.

The prophet Isaiah directs the people,

remove the yoke from among you,
the pointing of the finger, the speaking of evil,

if you offer your food to the hungry
and satisfy the needs of the afflicted,

then your light shall rise in the darkness
and your gloom be like the noonday.

Remove the yoke, the spirit of oppression, the spirit that says, “My ox deserves to be cared for on the Sabbath, because it serves my interests; but that woman can wait until tomorrow. There’s always someone worse off.”

if you call the sabbath a delight
and the holy day of the Lord honorable;

if you honor it, not going your own ways,
serving your own interests, or pursuing your own affairs;

then you shall take delight in the Lord,
and I will make you ride upon the heights of the earth;

Satisfy the needs of the afflicted – remove the spirit of her weakness and the burden of oppression that bows her to the ground, lift her up, and she will praise God, and you will see the lightness that love can bear, the spirit of praise, and not a faint spirit. Lift her up, and you will find yourself lifted free of the need to climb over others to get a better view of God. Lift her face from the floor, and you will find the face of God.

The choice that Isaiah and Jesus offer is between a religion that binds and burdens the people; and one that sets them free. We face much the same choice today. Which gospel will we proclaim in our words and in our lives? Which spirit will we embrace?

The words of the leader of the synagogue echo wherever religion is used to bind people’s backs and burden them, turn their faces to the ground; wherever the spirit of diminishment and degradation whispers, and is not admonished. Where discrimination festers, and disgrace is preferred to embrace. Where the privileged and the oblivious clamber onto the bent backs of women and children of God to get a better view of life, there that spirit of Satan persists. Where, in our religion and our righteousness, we prefer to discourage infringements of our Sabbath observance, instead of encouraging healing, a Sabbath rest from sin and suffering for those bent to the ground.

But Jesus sets the woman free. He will not allow our lack of faith in God’s grace to bind him; our fear that her health will diminish our wealth, or that her miracle will diminish the chance that there will be one left for us when we need it. Jesus will not be bound by a spirit of faint praise or by the fear that he will be thought over-enthusiastic, healing people on the Sabbath, no less, setting them free, lifting her face from the floor to see God.

No, Jesus sets her free, and he stands her up in front of the whole synagogue, and she sings praise to the glorious God.

And all that the leader of the synagogue really needed to do, was to say, “Amen.”

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Overwhelming

I am considering the word “overwhelmed.”

I cannot unsee the news photography: cars sinking, dramatic rescues, coffins floating down streets overwhelmed by the Flood;

an airbag deployed, overspilling its plastic cage, overwhelming the object of its zealous protection; she is shaking.

A friend is overwhelmed with love, kindness, generosity; the best kind of deluge.

I am overwhelmed by a flash flood of story, emotion, reaction, and the prevailing requirement to remain calm in the face of the storm.

Overwhelming is the grace of God, which is not drowned nor diminished by our tears of gratitude, joy, or desperation;

overwhelming, so that sometimes, I have to hold my breath, dive deep to find it.

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Off centre

The hedgerow maze boxes me in,
walls me out through another false turn.
In the centre hides perfection,
unbreakable cypher, impassive God.

Out in the margins of error,
the elbow crook of one more dead
end, lies Jesus, sprawled as though
we were not hopelessly lost at all.

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