Usual saints

“Sometimes, I wish I had a cool saint story. Something like Christopher, who carried the Christ child without knowing it, and nearly got crushed, drowned and dead for his trouble. Or George, killing the dragon and getting the girl (did you know saints get girls? Some of them do). Patrick had that neat snake trick going, and little Joanie dressed up as a man to drive the English snakes out of France and crown the True King, although if she’d thought twice, she might have put it a little less messianically. Came to a bad end, that one, as in not the end I’d choose for myself.

Then there’s Joseph, who went around burying people upside down in their own front yards, unless – and this is quite possible – I’m becoming a little confused.

Point is, I don’t have a cool, curious or eye-catching story like theirs. No snakes, dragons, water, fire or miraculous real estate deals. I am one of the run-of-the-mill, everyday, workaday, usual saints. I am here today, being remembered with my colleagues from every walk of life and every shade of death you can imagine, because once I told my godchild that I was praying for her, and she remembered it, because no one had ever told her that before.

She imagined my prayers whispering around God’s ears, and God’s eyes turning to fall upon her, and God’s hand stretching out to her and offering her a Kleenex. She imagined God’s smile as she hunched over her own knees and snuffled and sniffed and refused comfort only so that it would be offered some more.

She felt that warmth that you know if you’ve felt it, and she remembered that imagined moment for years to come, so that today, one of those millions of candles is mine, my birthday song, my twinkling star, my memory, lit up by an old lady with a Kleenex in her pocket, a prayer in her heart and, God bless her, an eager readiness to share either with the first poor passerby that looks like he needs it.

It amazes me still to be in the company of the saints and the apostles and, of course, You Know. Just a usual saint, mostly unremembered, the story seldom told, as ordinary as the man sitting next to you on the bus, infinitely blessed.”

As told to reporters at the Usual Saints’ Annual Rally for All Saints and All Souls, Cloud Nine, HN

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A hard act to follow

God knew that Moses would be a hard act to follow. Joshua knew it, too, and having heard quite a bit about the attitudes of the people with whom he was travelling, no doubt they let him know that they knew it just as well.

From the start, God let Joshua know that he would not be alone – “Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go” (Joshua 1:9). God has made the same promise to the people, and they are willing to follow; “Only may the Lord your God be with you as he was with Moses” (Joshua 1:17).

In times of change, which always implies loss, we are anxious. We grieve for the leader who is lost – whether to a new job, a new city, or to retirement or even, as with Moses, to death. Even as we begin to pick up our bags and load up our camels and face forward with the best of intentions to honour the legacies of the past and carry them into the unknown future, that tether, that cord of love and loyalty tugs at our shoulders, so that we shrug them and our packs will not sit comfortably; so that we look back over them, puzzled as to what we might expect to see. Our imaginations of what lies ahead have gaps in them, in the unfocused shape of the one we have lost. His vision no longer paints in the details; they are fuzzy and scruffy and worrisome.

The one whose new job it is to paint us a picture pauses for a moment, brush held in trembling hand, dripping paint.

God speaks. God tells an old story, older than the Exodus, older than Moses, older than Israel, older than the world.

The waters flood. Chaos threatens. The Spirit of God moves over the deep. The waters are gathered together and piled up in heaps, folded like blankets and set aside so that the dry land can rise up to meet the feet of the people of God and they may walk in the way that God has painted for them, leading them forward into the future with the gentle, whispering, threatening, comforting reminder of the waiting waters on either side:

“I am with you as I was with Moses. The living God is among you.”

Joshua is not your new leader. Do not call him rabbi, or the father of your people, your saviour or your Messiah. You have one teacher, one father, one Messiah, one God (Matthew 23:8-10). Changes come, people go, but from the beginnings of the world when the waters rose in chaos to the end, God folds the blankets of confusion, grief and fear aside to lead you through.

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Wives, be subject to your husbands

This afternoon, I heard that passage from Ephesians read in worship, by a woman, and I smiled. I smiled because I knew that she was going to have something to say about it! I smiled, too, because it reminded me of my colleagues from the preaching class I took in my first semester at seminary, their wisdom, grace, good humour and encouragement.

So, just because I can, I am sharing with you, in abridged form, the last sermon I preached in that group, back in the late fall of 2008. It was on, oh yes, Ephesians 5. Wives, be subject to your husbands.

 

… Perceptions of marriage have changed over the years. …

What remains constant about marriage is that it is life-changing. Marriage is a revolution.

This text hints at the enormity of marriage when it talks about the mystery that makes one flesh out of two, and then, wonderfully, goes on to apply this image to Christ and the church.

It uses the imagery of marriage and of the body to give the commandment that a man is to treat his wife as he does his own body; not as a body which he owns, but as one that is essential to his own well-being, to his very life.

But sometimes, the beauty of that imagery, of that marriage, gets obscured. It’s the second sentence of the passage that trips me up:

“Wives, be subject to your husbands as you are to the Lord.” …

To be honest, I don’t think that these words belong with the rest of the gospel message – the message which then strives to make up for them by telling husbands how much they must love their wives.

I think that these words: “Wives, be subject to your husbands,” come from a place of fear, when the rest of the message comes from a place of celebration.

We, the church, are so closely united to Christ, the writer tells us, that it is as though we have become one flesh with him. We have become his body. We are members together of Christ, more closely united ot one another than any human marriage ceremony could make us.

That is the glorious part of the message.

And yet, out of fear of what the neighbours might say about it, there is this caution: Wives, be subject to your husbands.

Maybe the fear is justified. After all, what will the neighbours say? They might reject the message of Christ because it challenges their way of being, their careful hierarchy and gender roles. They might persecute the Christians. They might make martyrs of them.

These fears were real for the Ephesians and their advisor. The Gospel was real and true; but they still had to face the neighbours every morning.

Of course, these days things are different, aren’t they? The church is still subject to persecution, tragically, in some parts of the world. But we, here in north America, are, on the contrary, privileged.

So why do we still worry about what the neighbours might think? Why do we still hold back parts and pieces of the gospel message of reolutionary equality and justice? Because we do. Even though we have begun to talk about stewardship of the earth and caring for the environment; even though we talk about was and the death penalty and the moral issues surrounding the beginnings and endings of life; even though we talk about institutionalized racism; even though we talk a lot about sex – there are times when our courage fails us, as churches and as individuals.

What is holding us back? …

The fact is, as this text intimates, that we have nothing to fear but fear itself. We have been washed clean as a church, clothed in a white garment, and presented to Christ as nothing less than his own body.

(You know, my own christening gown was made out of the remnants of my mother’s wedding dress!)

In baptism, we have shared in Christ’s death and in Christ’s resurrection, so what do we have left to fear?

Marriage itself is an act of courage, an act of faith, even an act of recklessness – to promise to spend one’s whole life with another person, all while knowing that it doesn’t always work out as planned. Yet each couple who enters this state of marriage is emboldened – by love, by example, by the knowledge that in this of all things they are not alone; their spouse, their beloved, their other half will help them keep their promises.

How much more can we depend upon Christ to help us in our reckless revolution, which declares all of God’s people to be members together of our own bodies, married to Christ’s own.

I know that I of all people am not the best example of this courage, but I am trying to learn from others who are braver and bolder than I,

and I am surrounded by the assurance that neither death nor life, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

This marriage is for good, and for ever.

 

Thank you to my bold and reckless friends and mentors. Thank God for you.

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and your neighbour as yourself

One last bunch of words inspired by this coming Sunday’s gospel reading (see previous two posts for more):

Neighbour as self

I see myself pick up the paper before the street is awake,

shuffling back in slippers to the echoing, empty house.

I watch the sun rise and the trees sway in the wind.

The squirrels make scattering noises on the roof.

When darkness falls, the cold bites hard, leaving marks on my skin.

I burn the newspaper for warmth, but it flames up and dies too soon.

Outside, the day dawns gray, without sun.

I see my newspapers gathering rain.

I wonder if I should check if I’m alright,

or leave myself alone, alone, alone.

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All your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind

Following on from yesterday’s post, All:

Heart

A chamber choir sings

unthinking muscular love,

somewhat off-centre.

Soul

Shuffle footed jazz angels dancing cheek to cheek,

glorious in the dark.

Mind

“Mind the gap.”

The train pulls in and I board a can of

bags, butts and backpacks,

hanging helpless by the strap,

eyes forward, unfocused,

waiting for the light.

Brick up my ears and my eyes,

close down my mind to

the size of an acorn,

which I put in my pocket for later,

all the better to love you with.

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All

All

 

is a lot.

If I love you with all of my heart,

my soul, my mind,

what is left over?

 

What happens to that piece that I keep inside –

 you know, the jagged-edged sliver of mirror glass

stored deep under dark waters –

what happens if I use that to love you?

 

If I take it out, turn it over,

let the light shatter

its shiny, brittle surface –

what will survive?

 

Can I love you

with all of my heart,

and soul, and mind,

and live?

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The Sermony Wordle

A wise and fun friend shared a wordle on his blog made out of his last several sermons, and it looked like fun. So, here’s one from my last five as published on this blog:

 

 

 

 

Go to www.wordle.net to make your own, but not before you check out Jon’s at http://thistopofspeculation.blogspot.com/2011/10/preaching-word.html?spref=fb !

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Incipient

 

There was a grass snake.

Only you could have found it,

green and coiled, harmless.

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Matthew 22: The wedding banquet

Is it just me, or does the parable related in this Sunday’s Gospel have something of a dreamlike – or even nightmarish – quality? Perhaps it’s because the action is all on the level of emotion and reaction:

  • invitation,
  • expectation,
  • disappointment,
  • pleading,
  • indifference,
  • violence,
  • rage,
  • inspiration,
  • opportunism,
  • disrespect, 
  • fear,
  • astonishment,

and all wrapped up in a story about the love of a king for his son, the joy of a marriage feast, the celebration of that love and joy.

The nightmare is that the love and the joy get lost, get twisted up, forgotten and kicked to the corner by the rage, the disappointment, the indifference and the fear.

The dawning hope is the remembrance that at the heart of this story are love and joy, union and abundance, and the king’s persistent invitation to share in the celebration.

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Travelling Light

Another trip to my personal Bexley Hall archives finds this offering for a celebration of St Francis of Assisi, from October 5th, 2011. No animals were harmed in the writing of this sermon, which was delivered at the Bexley Hall and Trinity Lutheran Seminary Tuesday evening Eucharist.

 

Francesco Bernardone, better known to us as St Francis of Assisi, knew all about traveling light. An early account of his life tells the story of his stripping naked in front of his bishop and handing his father the clothes off his back to confirm his dedication to a life of poverty and service instead of the family business. Later, when he had dressed himself in a tunic and belt, with staff and shoes, he heard the gospel message in which the disciples are sent out without footwear or spare clothes, without money or bread or a staff, and he threw away everything extra that he had once more, and dressed himself in a tunic shaped like the cross, to carry nothing with him but Christ crucified, and to ward off the temptations of the devil.1

 So here’s a question: if Francis turned up at Columbus airport today, and tried to go through security, would he be blessed and waved through, because he has no carry-on luggage to feed through the x-ray, no shoes to take off before walking through the scanner, he isn’t carrying a bottle of water greater than 3.5oz, and he possesses no gold, silver, or other precious metals to set off the metal detector? Or would he be called out and taken to a small, windowless room, suspected of anti-social tendencies and possibly worse, because he doesn’t fit the acceptable model of the 21st-century material traveler? In a culture that makes a virtue of traveling smart, is traveling light a step too far?

 I confuse traveling light with traveling smart all the time.

 Ask a child to pack a bag for a vacation or a trip away from home, and see what they consider essential. They might pack a teddy bear, for cuddling. A favorite book, to which they already know all the words and animal noises, because it represents special moments with a beloved carer, at bedtime, or naptime. They probably won’t worry about too much else, partly because, if they’re lucky enough, they can trust their parent or guardian to take care of the rest; partly because they know that what matters the most is being loved, and giving love. The bedtime story and the cuddle bear are the essentials for traveling light.

 Ask me to pack a bag and I’m afraid I’ll put in too many clothes, just in case the weather changes; too many books that I’ll never get around to reading but I feel as though I should; too many electronic devices and all of their chargers, so that I’ll never be out of touch with the wider world, should it feel the need to call upon me while I’m gone. Even if I get smart and buy myself a Kindle, so that the weight of the hardback books is not in my baggage; that doesn’t reduce the burden of books I should read but won’t. And buying a smart, universal charger won’t reduce the burden to me or to the environment of all of my electronics, including my new Kindle, which bleed power from every available source, the weight of the world on my laptop.

 Traveling smart does not necessarily equal traveling light.

 In Jesus’ day, the smart travelers were the ones arguing about who could do what on the Sabbath, about the proper way to go about achieving salvation. I wonder, are we so very different?

Traveling light meant laying down the burden of being right in favor of trusting the right one, Jesus, the one sent by God to reveal God’s gracious love of us.

 The children were the ones whose eyes were open in wonder to the reality of Jesus’ gospel message: that none of the burdens which we lay upon ourselves make a blind bit of difference to God’s love for us. That God loves us enough to reach out regardless, that all we need to do is to be open to that love. The burden of God’s love is light and easy to carry; it is gentle. It touches us with tenderness.

 Elsewhere, Jesus sums up the burden of the law: love God and love one another. It’s that simple. So easy a child can understand it and get it right.

 It’s not that the rest of us like to make things complicated for ourselves. Alan Durning has written that when Moses came down from Mt Sinai, the considerations of an ethical life could be summarized in ten bullet points. Now, the flipping of a switch can involve at least that many factors to be considered.2 The burdens of a faithful life are difficult to escape.

 But sometimes, we are tempted to yoke ourselves to expectations and resolutions and demands which miss the point. We put a premium on training ourselves to be independent, self-sufficient leaders, while Jesus invites us to gentleness and humility. We insist on the correct liturgy and music, the right way to do things, while the child makes a joyful noise to God and revels in the spectacle of solemn grown-ups. We make clever arguments and fine points when the innocent child knows that if we make them without love, they are hollow and meaningless.

 And it’s not that there’s anything wrong with being a strong leader. There’s nothing wrong with being smart or clever. There’s certainly nothing wrong with worshiping God with liturgy blessed by tradition and authority and uplifted by fine music and solemn gestures. There’s nothing wrong with trying to get things right, whether we’re preaching or parenting, praying or playing or writing a paper.

 But when we burden ourselves with excessive demands and perfectionist expectations which have nothing to do with the Gospel of love, of gentleness, of humility and grace, then we trade the lightness of Jesus’ yoke for the smart but heavy baggage of the religious leaders.

 I know it’s a trap that I fall into all the time.

 I’m so ready to take up my cross and follow Jesus that I forget that he has already done the work of the cross and resurrection, without any help from me.

 But the invitation proffered in this Gospel is irresistible. “Come to me, all of you who are weary and are carrying heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. …For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”3

 The sacrifice of praise and thanksgiving is an easy burden to carry.

 The yoke of love is a comfortable one, which brings its own delight.

 Most of us will not take the call to burdenless living, of total dependence upon Christ, as literally as Fransesco Bernadone did, to the relief perhaps of our bishops, our families, and airport security personnel. Perhaps our burdens will remain heavier as a result. And even burdens of love bring grief as well as delight into our lives. But wouldn’t it be refreshing to trust ourselves to the gentleness and humility that Christ promises, and to lay down our burdens to rest in God, as a child rests in its parent’s arms?

 For God will not let your foot be moved, as the Psalm says,4 and the One who watches over you will not fall asleep.

 So this evening, may we rest a while from our burdens, and like children of a loving God, let Christ feed us and forgive us, and fill us with delight in the One who creates, sustains and redeems us.

 Amen.

1 Medieval Sourcebook: Thomas Celano, First and Second Lives of Saint Francis (excerpts and commentary) @ http://www.fordham.edu/halsall/source/stfran-lives.html

2 “When Moses came down from Mount Sinai, he could count the rules of ethical behavior on his fingers. In the complex global economy of the late 20th century, in which the simple act of turning on an air conditioner affects planetary systems, the list of rules for ecologically sustainable living could run into the hundreds.” Alan Durning, “How Much is Enough,” in Simpler Living, Compassionate Life: a christian perspective, edited and compiled by Michael Schut (Denver: Morehouse Publishing, and Earth Ministry, 1999), p.97

3 Matthew 11:28,30

4 Psalm 121:3-4

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